Ugh. I am not as far out as you. I've been waking up at 2am or so (and 4 and 6). At 2:30 I sent him an email telling him I missed him. He has not responded. Don't know why I thought he would, when I of course gave me the courtesy of responding to his emails, texts and calls when he walked out on me. Hurts like hell, don't it?
Try to hang in there, WhyMe. And it ain't easy, but be strong and try not to contact him with "I miss you" messages. If our goal is to disengage, such messages can't help our situations.
It's not easy!
Meanwhile, has he responded? How are you doing today?
I had a horrible day (I posted in Level 6 "Continued support" thread and I had another post called Help! probably in Undecided this morning - I was trying NOT to recontact him). He didn't respond to the email but he did to another text later. I am really not sure where I fit in the disengaging role at the moment, I still fluctuate. I have done so much thinking (because with him at a distance, I actually CAN think) that I am now seeing my own role in the madness, and how that affected him at times, and yes, with that is no F, little G and probably mostly O
I am feeling more at peace tonight though, for some odd reason. Hope your day was ok. x
