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« on: June 16, 2011, 03:57:04 PM »

At Any Cost: Saving your Life after Loving a Borderline
Shari Schreiber

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This very long article (7,000 words, 28 book pages) is about failed male-female romantic relationships in which the female partner is suspected to be suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). Schreiber ambitiously attempts to describe the motivations, intentions, and interactions of both parties from the beginning of the relationship until well into the breakup.

The author characterizes, in earthy detail, many of the common anxieties that someone who participated in a relationship where one partner exhibits BPD-like tendencies might feel--this is helpful and readers should find comfort in knowing that they are not alone in these feelings. "Your Borderline might have been so insecure and needy, you felt reasonably certain she would never leave you."  "You cannot help agonizing over how she could leave given all the times she told you that this was the best sex she ever had, how much she needed you, and that she could never even imagine living without you." You're probably obsessing about what she's feeling or doing, who she's screwing--and wondering if she's thinking at all about you." — Shari Schreiber

Beyond this, however, the article fails to deliver an emotionally intelligent, balanced or realistic perspective on the relationship dynamics or how to deal with the relationship loss in a constructive way. Instead, it provides a very black-and-white/good vs evil plot, in which the person with the BPD traits is characterized as cunning, manipulative, self-serving and dangerous--while the partner (the intended reader) is painted as a well-intentioned people pleaser who just wants to be loved. The language is vivid, with deviant sexual overtones at times and a dehumanizing way of describing the woman with possible BPD. "The dangerous, diabolical hook with Borderlines, is they initially come across as genuine, and completely without pretense, guile or disguise. This helps you drop your guard... .These early behaviors are central to their Seduction Plan... ." "Heaven knows, you're not perfect--but you've overlooked an awful lot, just to keep this woman caring enough to stick around." — Shari Schreiber  

These relationships and breakups, by their very nature, are emotional and difficult to navigate.  The black-and-white contrast of the article may not be helpful as it encourages greater feelings of injustice, victimization, and even rage. "if you're reflexively making yourself [feel] "wrong" for conjuring up all sorts of terrible fates befalling her, ease-up on yourself! Your anger is appropriate under these circumstances, and it's an activating emotion--which gives you temporary respite from this dreadful depression. Rage is a normal aspect of your healing process, but try to hold these feelings without self-judgment" — Shari Schreiber

It is true that anger is a natural way to shield more painful feelings of loss, fear, guilt, and anxiety—and a phase of grieving. However, fueling the rage ("violent and uncontrolled anger" and overlooking the real emotions that lie beneath is not the perspective on would expect from a mentor or the perspective needed to constructively grieve.

These biases are particularly concerning because many of the intended readers are depressed (site surveys show 74%) and already vulnerable and prone to what Standford University's David Burn, MD calls "twisted thinking". (1) Twisted thinking includes "all or nothing thinking," "overgeneralizations," labeling, personalization and blame...  

When the article does talk about the reader’s (non-borderline's) digressions and bad choices, they are largely blamed on the person suspected of having BPD or BPD traits. Borderlines can turn good men into monsters. They'll steadily erode your self-worth with subtle/snide comments and other passive maneuvers, even if their words can't be identified as wounding or cruel. Their delivery and tone will make you feel infantalized--as if she's the critical parent, and you're the little kid, who's done something terribly wrong. She's masterful at shaming you."  "This [her] behavior triggers your competitive reflex, because boyhood self-esteem issues get activated (along with abandonment concerns), and you're compelled to do something about that! This can take the form of buying her costly gifts, fawning over her, taking her on elaborate trips/vacations, etc. Her diabolical maneuvers are designed to make you feel insecure/unworthy, view her as more valuable than she sees herself, and manipulate your desire and emotions." — Shari Schreiber

Schreiber goes on to explain that the reader is not at fault “You'll want to blame yourself ... .but this is directly tied to experiences in childhood... .A young child can't make sense of why isn't getting enough love, affection or support from a parent, it doesn't even know how to ask for it… you've carried the self-worth injuries into your adult relationships, and now they're alive again." — Shari Scheiber  

Ironically, this is the exact childhood issue of lack of parental attachment that is most often identified as being potentially causative of BPD. Certainly this is not a universal experience for all of the readers but the statement itself underscores that recovery from these failed relationships should not be about finding fault--but rather about healing, stepping back and understanding the convolutions of the relationship dynamics, and becoming more self-awareof our own attachment issues.  

Let's break down one example to compare Schreiber’s theory to the mainstream.

The dangerous, diabolical hook with Borderlines, is they initially come across as genuine, and completely without pretense, guile or disguise. This helps you drop your guard, and makes it easy to trust that their statements to you are real--and they're authentic, integrous individuals. The ease you have felt with them is so natural and wholesome, it seems you've waited for this your whole life! These early behaviors are central to their Seduction Plan; as soon as they sense that you're captivated, you're captured— Shari Schreiber

SCHREIBER’S THEORY: People with Borderline Personality Disorder present a carefully crafted and false persona and this behavior is part of a conscious and evil (diabolical) plan to allure, capture and exploit.

MAINSTREAM PSYCHOLOGY THEORY: Almost everyone mirrors their partner to some extent in a new relationship--fashions themselves in an image they think the other person will be attracted to.  And almost everyone idealizes a new love interest--puts them on a pedestal.  But people with BPD generally over express all emotions and suffer from very low self-esteem and a weak sense of self and they compensate by mirroring and idealizing to an unhealthy extreme.  

This Schreiber theory of a well-planned plot to capture a victim conflicts with two of the hallmark characteristics of this disorder:

  • People with BPD are notoriously impulsive (not planners).

  • People with BPD are hugely idealistic (even fairytale-ish) about love. It stands to reason that the reason the "love" was so believable in the beginning was because the BPD partner believed in it too (rather than it being a diabolical evil plot).

Does any of this matter?  

There are significantly different healing implications for in these two theories and which path one selects could make a significant difference in their focus on making the changes necessary to avoid a repeating these struggles with a future partner.  

Schreiber's simplistic "black and white" theories imply that these relationships are about a predator and prey. But conjuring up a "super villain" to avoid facing our emotional pain is dysfunctional coping and it brings us no closer to a healthy and mature healing.  "Black and white" or "all or nothing" is distorted (it's all her not me) thinking.  The reader's struggles often have roots beyond the "BPD" relationship.

The mainstream thinking is more complicated.  These highly traumatic romantic relationships with a person suffering from BPD are most often the result of two injured people coming together and becoming enmeshed in a very complex relationship. Even if one partner has significantly more issues that the other, it is no less important to channel the pain of this failed relationship into self-discovery and growth. A significant part of the journey is to achieve self-awareness and to understand the role that each partner played in the relationship "dance".

Review completed by ~ An0ught, BlackandWhite, Patty, PDQuick, Seeking Balance, United for Now.  This is a review of the article as it appeared on June 1, 2011 (note - the article is continuously modified).


About the Author
Shari Schreiber is a men's advocate and self-described healer/author/life strategist (2).

(1) Informal survey showing as many as 74% of bpdfamily members have symptoms of depression bpdfamily.com/topic=79772.0

(2) More information on author and member experiences bpdfamily.com/message_board/topic=161211
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« Reply #1 on: June 23, 2011, 03:56:13 PM »

"as soon as they sense that you're captivated, you're captured"

This seems to fit more with narcissist personality disorder & psychopathology from what I know about both, but I may well be wrong- maybe it also applies to some BPDs.
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« Reply #2 on: June 23, 2011, 04:35:52 PM »

When you are hurting and searching for reasons, these type of articles can be appealing. They seem to reaffirm your pain and all the hard work you put into the relationship. It feels good to have someone agree that you did the best that you could. It feels comforting to find out that the other person is mentally ill (thus to blame). The explanation soothes the hurt and disappointment you feel.

Unfortunately, getting caught in this type of thinking doesn't help with the healing process. In many ways, it actually contributes to keeping members stuck in the negative cycle of blame and anger. Moving forward requires you to accept what happened, examine your own role, and to work towards self improvement so that you can get off the roller coaster for good (and don't wind up with someone similar the next time).

In the end, being proactive will get you further than being reactive... .
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« Reply #3 on: June 23, 2011, 04:36:07 PM »

I read this article during the initial break up from my exNPDbf and remember feeling worse-the blaming and labeling of this article increased my sense of shame about myself for being in the relationship and believing that HIS emotions were that hot/cold. I was sickened by the thought of someone very dear to me walking away without a second thought. Of course it isn't true-no matter how they behave or talk-something ugly and disturbing motivates the behavior. The flippancy was not helpful to me.

I wanted to read motivations behind the actions and understand what happened.  

This does not excuse the behavior and it cannot be romanticised as a tragic love story-my emotionally disturbed partner created havoc in my life. My thinking was twisted  (although I was unaware of this at the time) going into the r/s. Mix in the BPD/NPD coping mechanism that leave the non confused ? by the loving-indifferent-loving-spiteful behavior of their SO and pretty soon the r/s and the non become twisted.

It would be naive of me to blame all the r/s dynamics and problems on my ex S/O wBPD/NPD. The reality of the situation is this-he served up crazy in a bitter but tasty cup of Jo and I sweetened the deal by adding cream and sugar.

If I were so attuned to my inner world and how I operate or my boundaries clear-the r/s would not have gone past the first few dates. He was symbolic of unfiinished business of my childhood.

Articles such as this increased my anxiety, caught me up in the blame game, and was pretty flippant about an emotionally painful event of my life. Further-it borders on supporting relational bullying.

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« Reply #4 on: June 23, 2011, 05:30:30 PM »

I don't believe my ex planned and calculated to hurt me.  

Rather I see him as simply doing what he had to do to get his needs met, just as one would do with hunger.  He had a need for love and attachment, a need for comfort to soothe his abandonment, his fears, his needs.  

I believe he felt he loved me, in as much as he is capable of love.  

It was simply a love that could not be sustained.  

I was ripe for the picking.  I was single, not looking for a r/s, but when he contacted me out of the blue, a guy I'd been briefly involved with 22 years ago, thought very highly of, and had nothing but good memories of, I was delighted to hear from him and it was a quick and easy rekindle of an old romance.  He had a free pass into my life because of our shared history that no other man would have gotten.  For me it was the perfect storm.  

I feel that I was simply the collateral damage of his disorder.  I don't think he set out to hurt me, I do think that being who he is he really could not have done otherwise.  

I think these relationships are tragic.  They're over before they even begin, and what both partners believe to be true, good and beautiful is really nothing more than a dance of need and illusion that will be likely struck down in the most painful fashion.  

At the same time, the pain of the non cannot be ignored or diminished.  If you're operating from a staNPDoint of "normal" or "average" or even something only reasonably close, there are rational and reasonable expectations of the progression of a relationship.  I doubt any of us who got involved with a borderline knew we were doing so, or had any idea what we were walking into.  We just thought we hit the love jackpot.  

I didn't know he was BPD.  I only really only knew a smattering about BPD, and most of what I'd heard indicated it was a women's issue.  I didn't know what I had lived with until I sat here, utterly bewildered, utterly heartbroken and shaking like a leaf, and started researching domestic violence, emotional abuse... .and eventually found my way here where the lightbulb went on.  And on.  And on.   Idea Idea Idea

I've been through difficult relationships before, I'd known serious abuse before, but I have *never* seen anything that could compare with what I've come to believe was a relationship with a person with BPD.  

Intentional?  No.  No more calculating and intentional than a  tornado would be.  But utterly devastating nonetheless.   Absolutely requiring of research, enlightenment, and recovery.  

If there were said to be evil involved, I would not say the BPD was evil, I would perhaps say the BPD was under the influence of evil.  

As I tend to be of a spiritual mind, I do believe in good and evil, and I believe that much of human behavior is thus influenced.  I believe evil targets our weaknesses and preys upon our frailties.  Perhaps that's where "guilt" ultimately lies... .not in the individual, but in the actions perpetrated under the influence of evil.  And that can easily go to both parties.  

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« Reply #5 on: June 23, 2011, 07:05:47 PM »

I think this is a worthwhile discussion.

I personally believe that the behaviors exhibited by people with BPD (pwBPD) are perfectly human behaviors.  That is to say, I think each and every one of us are capable of behaving in similar ways.  Why else do we "nons" pick up "fleas"?  

The nature of their disordered behaviors is that they are coping mechanisms.  They dissociate because they experience feelings or thoughts that are too difficult to handle.  They "split" for similar reasons.  "Nons" are just as able to "project" and also to "split" (ie, exhibit black & white thinking) especially when we are coping with emotions that are intense and powerful; such as those emotions we feel when considering our BPD loved ones.

I personally believe that when pwBPD "leave" us, they can put us through a kind of abandonment trauma.  After all, what is abandonment?  It is when someone you trust deeply betrays yours trust and severs their contact with you.  I think that often the way we are "left" we feel as though we were abandoned.  And so our reactions to this abandonment is not dissimilar to how pwBPD reaction when they experience their fear of abandonment.  Why else do you suppose so many of us nons feel and wonder if we are not the ones who are (also) suffering from BPD?

I think for these reasons we are subject to twisted thinking just as pwBPD are.  And so I think the point of this article review is to highlight the kinds of biased thinking that we nons are more vulnerable to subscribing.  Personally I think when our emotions are intense enough, it is inevitable that we exhibit "twisted" thinking.   The danger to oversubscribing to twisted thinking is that it prevents us from learning and perhaps preventing the repetition of our mistakes.

For example, if I choose to believe that it was my ex who *duped* me.  Then I would be more inclined to conclude that I just need not to be *fooled* next time.  If I believe that the only culpability I had to contend with was my own naivety then I might not choose to investigate deeper into my own issues, issues that might reveal to me why I *subconsciously* continue to seek out such psychologically damaged partners.

"Twisted" thinking might lead me to conclude that the only problem I have is that I keep selecting the wrong partner; and that I only need to get lucky and find the *right* partner.  And yet there are those of us who continue to find the *wrong* partner over and over again.  I am fairly certain this is the delusion that pwBPD entertain in order to perpetuate their serial relationships while investing zero attention to their own issues.  We are just as capable to such delusions as pwBPD are.

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« Reply #6 on: June 23, 2011, 07:35:56 PM »

Just wanted to say that her articles, particular the one about men with BPD since that pertains to me more, was what initially helped me decide to leave for good.

I went back and read them a few more times for about a week or so then I stopped because after my initial emotional turmoil calmed more, I realized it was just too extreme.  But it was good for that initial push for me to realize the r/s had a future that I did not want.  I don't read them anymore though, because it is too black-and-white and doesn't really help me in the healing process.

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« Reply #7 on: June 23, 2011, 08:30:12 PM »

The nature of their disordered behaviors is that they are coping mechanisms.  They dissociate because they experience feelings or thoughts that are too difficult to handle.  They "split" for similar reasons. "Nons" are just as able to "project" and also to "split" (ie, exhibit black & white thinking) especially when we are coping with emotions that are intense and powerful; such as those emotions we feel when considering our BPD loved ones.



However when Nons respond in this manner, they are responding in reaction to something that actually happened in real time while BPD behavior is in response to a "trigger" (could be anything) to their subconscious.  Basically nons are responding to reality, where BPD's are responding to a subconscious perception very likely based in past events which have nothing to do with the here and now.  

For instance, if my BPD partner were to rage at me, yes, I'm going to respond.  Intense and powerful emotions evoke psychological and physiological responses (fight or flight) that are instinctively programmed.   I'm responding to the rage.  

The BPD's rage may have been "triggered" by any possible event.  I was 5 minutes late arriving home.  I was intensely studying and didn't hear them call for me.  Something on that order.  The event was perceived and processed as something it wasn't, and then the response.  

There's a big difference in responding to an "in your face" threatening reality and responding to a misguided perception that triggers a subconscious pain or fear generating a perhaps wildly inappropriate response.  


I personally believe that when pwBPD "leave" us, they can put us through a kind of abandonment trauma.  After all, what is abandonment?  It is when someone you trust deeply betrays yours trust and severs their contact with you.  I think that often the way we are "left" we feel as though we were abandoned.  And so our reactions to this abandonment is not dissimilar to how pwBPD reaction when they experience their fear of abandonment.  Why else do you suppose so many of us nons feel and wonder if we are not the ones who are (also) suffering from BPD?

Again, the abandonment we perceive when they leave (betray trust and sever contact) is abandonment in real time.  It is a very painful situation and it is normal human behavior to respond to this.  

The abandonment fear the pwBPD experiences is a deeply rooted subconscious fear based on an event that generally happened years ago and has nothing to do with us or real time.  


I think for these reasons we are subject to twisted thinking just as pwBPD are.  And so I think the point of this article review is to highlight the kinds of biased thinking that we nons are more vulnerable to subscribing.  Personally I think when our emotions are intense enough, it is inevitable that we exhibit "twisted" thinking.   The danger to oversubscribing to twisted thinking is that it prevents us from learning and perhaps preventing the repetition of our mistakes.



I don't think there is anything twisted in what would be considered to be a "normal" response to a real time event that most people would consider painful, threatening, etc.  Normal responses to real time events such as abandonment, abuse, rage, etc., would include fear, panic, upset, anger, grief, and of course "fight or flight"... .defend or retreat.  Again these are basic survival instincts.  

And then of course post r/s ending/abandonment, whatever, there is the grief process that is quite normal and takes as long as it takes to sort through, process  and reach acceptance.  :)enial Anger Bargaining Depression Acceptance... .all part of the process.  

Getting stuck and staying there?  Yep, that's a problem, but who's to say what's stuck?  Who's to say how long it should be before a person gets through that grief process, particularly when some have said grief can be cumulative?  I do think if one feels stuck, or others notice one is stuck that counseling is in order and would be helpful to recognize why and get the process moving again.  



For example, if I choose to believe that it was my ex who *duped* me.  Then I would be more inclined to conclude that I just need not to be *fooled* next time.  If I believe that the only culpability I had to contend with was my own naivety then I might not choose to investigate deeper into my own issues, issues that might reveal to me why I *subconsciously* continue to seek out such psychologically damaged partners.

"Twisted" thinking might lead me to conclude that the only problem I have is that I keep selecting the wrong partner; and that I only need to get lucky and find the *right* partner.  And yet there are those of us who continue to find the *wrong* partner over and over again.  I am fairly certain this is the delusion that pwBPD entertain in order to perpetuate their serial relationships while investing zero attention to their own issues.  We are just as capable to such delusions as pwBPD are.

I agree that labeling a person as bad and moving forward without analysis of the situation is just foolish, and I agree that as you said this is what pwBPD do ad infinitum.  It is a major mistake to not analyze the situation and learn from it.  Moving on from troubled relationships without proper analysis (particularly moving on quickly to another r/s) can lead to big trouble.  

I've been with abusive men in the past.  Recognized it.  Got counseling. Lots of it.  :)id EMDR  Thought I had it together, thought I knew what I was doing.  Then came Mr. BPD.

Now I have a whole different outlook and a whole different approach.  Give up on love?  Not a chance.  But I'm taking plenty of time, shoring up my own life, strength and emotional fortitude. and also, there will be a process now that just didn't exist in the past.  Kind of like "I once was blind but now I see... ."

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« Reply #8 on: June 23, 2011, 08:47:28 PM »

I think we have to   take  responsibility   after we find out it is BPD.

However , I'm not sure how much we have to take before we find out what we're dealing with.

I split up with my exBPD in 2009 mostly because of her abusive words when she drank. I mistakenly thought the drinking was the cause of her issues rather then a symptom. In between that 2 month split I found out about BPD by going on this board and reading articles including those by Shari Schreiber.  I really didn't want her to be a BPD but I was at least armed with the knowledge of what it was. Unfortunately she fit BPD almost  classically .This time around I wasn't quite in denial about her BPD behaviors especially her lying and craving for attention(and probable cheating ). Had I continued on knowing what I did about BPD  and that things weren't going to change (and probably just get worse) then I would  have the bulk of the responsibility.

There is a concept in law called assumption of risk. If your riding with someone that you know is a drunken idiot then you assume  a large percentage of the fault if get hurt in accident with them.On the other hand if you jump in a car with someone who is sober and they suddenly pull out a bottle of vodka ,down it and hit a pole injuring you then it is primarily their fault.

If my exBPDgf had  said to me at first " I drink like a fish and am abusive. I also like to go  to bars and flirt with guys.  I give out my phone numbers to  some of them and may even go to bed with a few of them. Did I mention my anger and mood swing issues?"  Instead she gave me a song and dance on how she liked a glass of wine now and then,  was a respected teacher,a single mom who raised 2 kids and wanted to be in a stable committed relationship.  I believed her.!It wasn't like I was dealing with a slippery used car salesman and should have been on guard.She really seemed to be a stable, loving ,honest person.
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« Reply #9 on: June 23, 2011, 10:20:53 PM »

clearly, i can see the examples of blame mentality, although i dont recall feeling that way at the time i read her articles. i consider myself to have a discriminating mind, as is rightfully suggested to have when learning about BPD from different sources. so i tend to dismiss what sounds a bit questionable to me, or even find descriptions or accounts that aren't that relevant to me, and take what is applicable.

generally speaking, i thought she was pretty insightful about what its like to deal with a pwBPD. i had lots of those "oh my god!" moments, especially when i read her describe the "questions" a borderline will start going through about your family members, designed to push your buttons and make you defensive.

my two cents are that a person coming out of these relationships, or remaining in one, should learn as much as they can, and take in as much as they can, with a discriminating mind. there's a resource article on this site, one of the very first things i read, that did that same sort of demonizing. i dismissed the demonizing, but i found the article itself very helpful and insightful. as part of a healthy diet of BPD knowledge, i think Schreiber's articles have a good amount to offer. i dunno about her qualifications. i have some questions about her. i think it's a bit odd that she said something along the lines of not doing therapy, but call me for counseling! but i suspect she has a fair amount of experience in dealing with borderlines, and that alone is useful. so no, don't eat up everything she says, just like i don't eat up every word anyone on this board says, but i would recommend her, primarily, because she has a way of (and stresses the approach of) saying things in ways that make them "click." those are the kinds of things i've found useful. i also think she has a lot to say on the subject of healing from these relationships, and the wounds that have occurred.
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« Reply #10 on: June 23, 2011, 10:44:34 PM »

also, just to jump in on the red flags convo, i saw them. i've got journal entries i read last night, from right before her and i finally met, and after we met (we had "met" through a friend). i use the phrase "red flags" repeatedly. so much "i don't know about this" and uneasiness. thing is none of this shocked me, i remembered it all. i knew better with this one, absolutely. i just decided i'd been wrong, and grew dismissive. what jumped at me was livia's quote of

"I think these relationships are tragic.  They're over before they even begin, and what both partners believe to be true, good and beautiful is really nothing more than a dance of need and illusion that will be likely struck down in the most painful fashion."

i remember feeling that after she told me she loved me. "this is too fast. too easy. it feels like all we are doing is crawling into each other." same thing happened to me when i read seeking balance write "our dysfunctions plug into theirs." i felt us just sort of drawn to each other based on sick needs, and i was uncomfortable with that. i knew this was going to destroy me in the end... .i just couldn't have predicted the ending.

fact is, i have no one to blame but myself. honestly, a lot of my EARLY red flags were misperceptions and weren't really a worry. but i KNEW this girl was crazy. i said so. when i made the conscious decision to date again, i also made the decision to be open to "another crazy one" to "test myself." i remember thinking that, and i read myself last night having written it at the time. i absolutely don't think everyone sees the red flags, or at least not clearly. some kind of like schwing mentions, may detect the red flags a bit more subconsciously and dismiss them for certain reasons. some people dismissed the red flags (including myself) for what seemed like very legitimate reasons. i can only speak for myself, but i should have known better, and i think i did. i do think most of us experienced at least in part, at some point, that gut feeling. it seems as much a hallmark as BPD symptoms themselves.
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« Reply #11 on: June 23, 2011, 11:22:46 PM »

Shari's articles are right on the money

You can't sugarcoat the disease. It has life and death consequences for both the BPD and the Non.
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« Reply #12 on: June 24, 2011, 11:55:19 AM »

"Life and death consequences" for the non?   A disease?

Howzah, Schreiber posits it's not an actual "disease" but an emotional stuntedness of sorts, a core wound caused in year one of life. She's real clear it's not a disease. For what her opinion is worth.

And it does look like she's highly regarded by some in the field. I'm not the type who needs someone with an alphabet after a last name though I have a few myself. Looks like she's been more than educated in the BPD post doc world.

I discovered her site last night and read thru everything BPD-related (getting past the extraordinary windedness & dizzying comma splices every other sentence). I get it that some think she's bashing BPDs. If I cared about a BPD in my life, I might take offense, but the 2 immediate relatives who hurt me over the course of a few decades, well, I need all the help I can get BEYOND repairing myself inward--.

Goes w/o saying all BPDs are "different" bc all people are "different"- but there's enough of a recurring constellation of observable behaviors & thinking processes that BPD has its own etiology, and isn't, say, agoraphobia. Truth is stranger than fiction. As a writer, I couldn't MAKE this stuff up if I tried.
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« Reply #13 on: June 24, 2011, 01:12:24 PM »

Howzah, Shari posits it's not an actual "disease" but an emotional stuntedness of sorts, a core wound caused in year one of life. She's real clear it's not a disease. For what her opinion is worth.

I'm not sure what "emotional stuntedness" is.  But the World Health Organization (WHO ICD-10 ) and APA (DSM-IV) have classified borderline personality disorder as a mental disorder.


And it does look like she's highly regarded by some in the field. I'm not the type who needs someone with an alphabet after a last name though I have a few myself. Looks like she's been more than educated in the BPD post doc world.

Harley, I'm not sure it is accurate to say that she is highly regarded in the field.  Shari Schreiber didn't complete her 3 year internship or state boards ... .she never reached the level of licensed therapist or counselor treating patients. She has not even participated as a guest/lay person in the NEA-BPD meetings as have authors (like Randi Kreger, Kiera Van Gieder, etc) and bloggers (like Tami Green).

One indication that she is out of the mainstream is her publishing this: "Borderlines can make tangible progress with solid therapeutic help, but you may have a better shot at flying to the moon strapped to a banana, than keeping them in treatment long enough, to accomplish any real growth or healing." Contrary to her belief, she published that in the very year that a 10 year study was published showing that eighty-five percent of patients treated for BPD remitted.  Treatment is no panacea for sure, but those that are respected in the field would likely take exception with the banana statement



Ten-Year Course of Borderline Personality Disorder
Psychopathology and Function From the Collaborative Longitudinal Personality Disorders Study


John G. Gunderson, MD; Robert L. Stout, PhD; Thomas H. McGlashan, MD; M. Tracie Shea, PhD; Leslie C. Morey, PhD; Carlos M. Grilo, PhD; Mary C. Zanarini, EdD; Shirley Yen, PhD; John C. Markowitz, MD; Charles Sanislow, PhD; Emily Ansell, PhD; Anthony Pinto, PhD; Andrew E. Skodol, MD

Arch Gen Psychiatry. Published online April 4, 2011. doi:10.1001/archgenpsychiatry.2011.37
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« Reply #14 on: June 24, 2011, 02:30:03 PM »

okay, found this, but there's no search function on her site... .she does reference the DSM charas for BPD in one of her letters, but the below seems to indicate BPDs can be helped:





  • "Q. Can Borderlines ever be healed?

    A. Yes, some can. Within a nurturing, supportive/safe, long-term therapeutic alliance, borderline disordered people can begin trusting another with their care. In my view, this requires considerable re-parenting work, which is best accomplished with a therapist who has deep compassion and understanding of core trauma, and the emotional scars (and defenses) that remain. With patience and time, these clients develop a stronger foundation/core, which enables trust in themselves and their ability to form healthier attachments."
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« Reply #15 on: June 24, 2011, 02:50:51 PM »

okay, found this, but there's no search function on her site... .she does reference the DSM charas for BPD in one of her letters, but the below seems to indicate BPDs can be helped:

"Q. Can Borderlines ever be healed?

A. Yes, some can. Within a nurturing, supportive/safe, long-term therapeutic alliance, borderline disordered people can begin trusting another with their care. In my view, this requires considerable re-parenting work, which is best accomplished with a therapist who has deep compassion and understanding of core trauma, and the emotional scars (and defenses) that remain. With patience and time, these clients develop a stronger foundation/core, which enables trust in themselves and their ability to form healthier attachments."

Again, this doesn't line up with what the real research is showing. AFAIK, "reparenting" is not an evidence-based treatment for BPD (definitely let me know if there is information to the contrary).

www.medscape.com/viewarticle/744003

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{... .}Four evidence-based treatments for BPD are dialectical behavior therapy, mentalization-based therapy, transference-focused psychotherapy, and general psychiatric management. Dialectical behavior therapy involves individual as well as group behavioral therapy, with didactics and homework on mood monitoring and stress management. This therapy is the best validated and easiest to learn of the psychotherapies. The therapist acts as a coach with extensive availability to instruct the patient in how to regulate feelings and behaviors.

Mentalization-based therapy is a cognitive or psychodynamic therapy including individual as well as group therapy. While assuming a "not-knowing" stance, the therapist insists that the patient "mentalize," or examine and label his or her own experiences and those of others. This emphasis on thinking before reacting may be a process central to all effective therapies.

Transference-focused psychotherapy, which is developed from psychoanalysis, is an individual psychotherapy with twice-weekly sessions. It highlights interpretation of motives or feelings unknown to the patient and focuses on the patient's misunderstanding of others, particularly of the therapist in the form of transference. This form of therapy is the least supportive and the most difficult to learn.

General psychiatric management, which is conducted once weekly, is a form of psychodynamic therapy developed from the American Psychiatric Association guidelines and the basic BPD treatment textbook. Although the main focus is on the patient's interpersonal relationships, this therapy may sometimes involve family interventions and pharmacologic treatment. General psychiatric management is the least theory bound and easiest to learn of the therapies, but it is also the least well evaluated.{... .}

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« Reply #16 on: June 24, 2011, 03:08:46 PM »

Interesting. Here she says,

  • "If Waifs engage therapeutic support, it's typically in the midst of a crisis; given they're inherently resistant to change or growth (which threatens their sense of control), their progress in therapy tends to be slow, and there are frequent setbacks and regressions."


& another place she says to the effect therapy doesn't work very well bc when closeness occurs, BPDs miss appointments then stop... .well, it looks like she has no definitive answer to this! Big red flag.  |> I'm glad you pointed this out.

Whatever the 10 year study protocols were, I'm glad for others that BPD can be helped. My BPD won't be helped & at 78, after a 2 decade absence from her, even after telling her about BPD way back then & my going NC, she's only worsened thru time, as I saw after breaking NC with her this year then having to go straight back to NC. --Cheers
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« Reply #17 on: June 25, 2011, 03:43:04 AM »

the suggestion that getting a borderline to commit to and stick through treatment is difficult or even nearly impossible doesnt strike me as necessarily contradicting or being ignorant of the 85% remission rate study of patients who had actually committed to treatment.

i've seen similar studies and whole heartedly believe them, but i've read nothing but stories on this board of refusal or failure in treatment. that's why i don't see a contradiction. those numbers don't include how many borderlines refuse treatment, or fail to seriously commit to it.
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« Reply #18 on: June 25, 2011, 09:37:45 AM »

This section from Ms. Schreiber's article is worth examining closely as well (highlighting mine):

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BPD isn't something we're born with--nor is it inherited. It is not due to an 'innate over-sensitivity' that leaves us at risk for acquiring it as we grow into adulthood. While behavioral models of treatment can help curb the volatile acting-out impulses, Borderline Disorder can't be eliminated with modalities such as DBT (Dialectical Behavior Therapy) that focus on the here and now--but fail to address/resolve infancy and childhood abandonment trauma and attachment issues, which drive a litany of clinical and social concerns.

While clinical disorders can be inherited genetically, personality disorders are sculpted by our earliest relational experiences. Those imprints shape how we feel about ourselves, and determine the extent to which we're able to forge trust in others (and Self). Much of BPD distress occurs within the first year of life, due to inadequate bonding or emotional attunement with Mother. These primal deficits usually continue to influence self-worth and partner selection for a lifetime, unless solid, core-focused therapeutic help is obtained.The intensely confusing and paradoxical behavior patterns of the Borderline are simply defenses that were adopted growing up, in order to survive these kinds of experiences in their childhood home. You might say, the Borderline is actually showing you, what he or she had to contend with as a little kid.

Anyone who is familiar with the evidence around the causes of BPD will be astonished at the certainty and definitive tone of these statements. The causes are very much under investigation, with some good studies, suggestive trends, indicators of important factors and so on--but by no means is this a settled matter, as the author implies. Here's a summary of the state of understanding of the field as of 2004, from the Lancet, a premier medical journal. The field is rapidly evolving, and a few things will have changed since 2004, but by no means do we have a definitive understanding, as Ms. Shreiber indicates. I've highlighted some key sections in the quote below.

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Causal factors

The cause of borderline personality disorder is complex with several factors, which interact in various ways with each other. Genetic factors and adverse childhood experiences might cause emotional dysregulation and impulsivity leading to dysfunctional behaviours and psychosocial conflicts and deficits, which again might reinforce emotional dysregulation and impulsivity. Data for the role of genetic factors are sparse. In one twin study, based on DSM-IV criteria,

concordance rates were seen for borderline personality disorder of 35% and 7% in monozygotic and dizygotic twin pairs, respectively, suggesting a strong genetic effect in the development of the disorder. Multivariate genetic analyses of personality disorder traits have identified four factors, with the main one labelled as emotional dysregulation and describing labile affects, unstable cognitive functioning, an unstable sense of self, and unstable interpersonal relationships. This main

factor resembles borderline personality disorder in many aspects, and heritability can be estimated at 47%.

Various types of adverse events during childhood, including ongoing experiences of neglect and abuse, are reported by many patients. The most frequent of these is childhood sexual abuse, which is reported by 40–71% of inpatients with borderline personality disorder. The severity of borderline psychopathology has also been linked to severity of childhood sexual abuse. Taken together, these findings have led some clinicians to view borderline personality disorder as a

form of chronic post-traumatic stress disorder. However, no evidence is available that childhood sexual abuse is either necessary or sufficient for development of this disorder. Other childhood factors have been judged important in development of the disorder, particularly difficulties attaining stable attachments. However, a study of attachment styles of patients with borderline personality disorder noted that these individuals reported increased concern about losing their primary

attachment figure. In view of this slight empirical evidence, whether these attachment difficulties are causal or a result of the emotional turbulence and impulsivity associated with borderline personality disorder is not clear.

www.tara4BPD.org/pdf/LancetReview.pdf

from "Borderline personality disorder," Lancet 2004; 364: 453–61

Klaus Lieb, Mary C Zanarini, Christian Schmahl, Marsha M Linehan, Martin Bohus

Author affiliations and qualifications: Department of Psychiatry and Psychotherapy, University of Freiburg Medical School, Hauptstrasse 5, D-79104 Freiburg, Germany (K Lieb MD); McLean Hospital and Harvard Medical School, Belmont, MA, USA (M C Zanarini EdD); Department of Psychosomatics and Psychotherapeutical Medicine, University of Heidelberg, Central Institute of Mental Health, Mannheim, Germany (C Schmahl MD, Prof M Bohus MD); and Department of Psychology, University of Washington, Seattle, WA, USA (Prof M M Linehan PhD)

Why treat something so unsettled (the causes of BPD) as settled? I don't know. However, the author certainly deviates from the mainstream with these claims. Her theory that BPD is not a clinical disorder, that it has no genetic component, and that it's caused solely by childhood attachment issues seems to fit with her general stance that people with BPD are not suffering from a disease. And if they are not suffering from a disease (a "clinical disorder", it's much easier to lose sight of a person's humanity in our natural anger at being mistreated.

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« Reply #19 on: June 25, 2011, 12:48:24 PM »

"it's much easier to lose sight of a person's humanity in our natural anger at being mistreated."

Absolutely.  Well, there's serious debate re alcoholism, as well. They tip the drink into their mouths, after all. No one has them at gunpoint. There may be more propensity of addictive behavior in one's genes... .well, when the drinking gets out of control, notice it then curb it. One theory is it's a moral failure, a disorder of character that an alcoholic keeps smacking back the booze. Others hold it's a disease... .I always thought a disease had no choice component to it. What do you do with no response to, "You're killing yourself with that scotch" or "You're ruining our marriage with these BPD behaviors."

Schreiber says somewhere on the site BPD causes are still under investigation and by no means is this a settled matter... .I wonder if she simply forgets what she writes from time to time on that site, bc this is another contradiction to the below I quoted. 
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« Reply #20 on: June 25, 2011, 02:13:45 PM »

Nobody disagrees that she writes stuff that "sounds good", especially to someone who is hurt and emotionally reeling.
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« Reply #21 on: June 25, 2011, 03:33:55 PM »

Schreiber is bashing of bpdfamily over on her site & references Skip by name- another red flag- which is unprofessional & unfortunate, & only undermines her credibility for me, at least, in the end. Cheers =) & btw THANK YOU, Skip, for your time & hard work on this site! Has been instrumental in my healing & goes w/o saying in many others' healing as well.
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« Reply #22 on: June 25, 2011, 03:47:20 PM »

Shari's articles have saved my life!  Doing the right thing (click to insert in post)  

I was suicidal.  Her article on Borderline Males specifically spoke LIFE into me and really helped me to understand the crux of this disorder.

I don't care about her qualifications or that she's a wack job.  All I know is that her articles are the TRUTH. They're a "make it plain" oasis in the desert for someone looking for real world explanations on the emotional dysfunctional effects of a little known disorder known as BPD.

And to be quite honest... .no one's looking for balanced scientific mumbo jumbo when they're hurting.  When people are hurting they DON'T CARE about textbook jargon or qualifying criteria.  And that's why Shari's vision is such an amazing gift that she's bestowed upon the Internet public.
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« Reply #23 on: June 25, 2011, 03:57:07 PM »

I just read Shari Schriber's entire article, and have to say that for a professional therapist who recognizes the immature black and white thinking of someone with BPD I can't believe she wouldn't recognize her own Black Hole thinking aout women with BPD - including singling women out for this article, which is 'stinkin thinkin' on steroids in my opinion.

Let me explain my opinion and give you my own credentials. My main credential is being married to a fairly extreme BPD woman for almost 20 years. I also was the director of a non-profit facility that provided various services for people with all types of physical and mental disabilities.

I feel this article absolutely paints the pwBPD as bad guys and the nons as poor misunderstood victims due to childhood experiences. What about the horrible childhood abuse many BPDs have experienced? No wonder we can't mention BPD to our SOs. It's this kind of 'professional'  tripe that has caused the horrible BPD stigma, and almost made me hate my own BPD wife in the past.
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« Reply #24 on: June 25, 2011, 04:40:38 PM »

I think that we all need to use discretion in our experience and processing of anything we read.  

We need to work through our own insights, get as much information from as many sources as possible, and then work on making informed, rational inferences from what we've learned.  

A lot of Shari's articles made great sense to me.  I did see many of the patterns she detailed played out almost verbatim in my r/s with my ex.  At the same time, I did feel the language and tone of her writing was at times tinged with a bit of hostility, judgement, and flippancy.  Whether that is as a result of her own pain having dealt with a pwBPD, or having seen the terrible pain of others, (perhaps both), it may have been a wee bit over the top.  

I must say I got a great deal of insight from AJ Mahari, a person with BPD, as well.  A bit of balance, a bit of understanding of the processes in operation on the other side of the fence.  

Now being able to relate my understanding of BPD to what I have learned/perceived about my ex, what he told me, it all makes sense, even more so by the day.  It's like all the puzzle pieces have slid into place, and yes, the puzzle is a tragic picture indeed.  

As for what I know of his history, my ex fits the classic causes of childhood abandonment and severe abuse.  As an adult... .intense and turbulent and short lived relationships, numerous jobs, numerous moves, serious anger problems, etc.  

From what I learned of him, his history, and our r/s, I've concluded he has BPD and/or some similar disorder.  It's not my right or job to diagnose anyone, this is simply a conclusion I arrived at after tons of reading and piecing things together.  That process was a part of recovery and healing for me, trying desperately to find and make sense out of something that didn't make any sense at all.  

As I have come to this place, and having been able to release what transpired between us, I can see the tragedy, I can see his suffering, and I can have compassion for him.  

As for Nons, we vary just as our relationships, and I don't think assumptions and judgments are productive.  

First, I do agree with Robhart that we cannot take much responsibility for what we didn't know.  

If we knew about our ex having BPD or some other serious pd (I did not), then there is a certain amount of responsibility that comes with that knowing.  Some decisions have to be made.  Serious ones which have consequences for everyone involved.  

If we didn't know about the pd, and found ourselves seriously abused in the r/s for a length of time where recognition of ongoing abuse was evident... . If we then  continued to allow cycles of abuse that would constitute abuse/codependency, then there is a measure of responsibility that comes with that.  Yet even that is quite a complex issue, because there are many reasons a person might not leave an abusive relationship in addition to love however misguided it may be (fear of escalation, financial issues, issues with children, religious issues, etc).  

I think it's important to eventually seek and hopefully find compassion and understanding for our ex's, but it is essential to first take care of ourselves.  Recovery and healing are essential for ourselves, for our futures, and for our eventual ability to feel compassion for someone who we feel emotionally (and perhaps also physically) brutalized us.  

Anyone who knows and understands the well known stages of grief... .denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance should be able to understand the anger of the non and the need for some sort of validation of their feelings.  I think anyone would agree that these can be excruciatingly painful and invalidating relationships, and given the necessity of working through those stages of grief in order to reach recovery, it is important to understand and support folks going through it.  

Sure ongoing venom and blame that seems to have no end in sight is something that should likely be worked through with a counselor (heaven knows our ex's could use that), yet who is to say when a person's pain has been vented, but that person?  Some are able to work it through in a relatively brief period... .others may take longer.  Having read recently that grief can be a cumulative thing... .that gives plausibility to those who may take longer to work through recovery.  

With working through the grief process, healing, peace, renewed strength, and clarity can come, and with those things in place forgiveness and compassion can begin.  I think to ask understanding, forgiveness and compassion of a person who has not completed the grieving/healing process is to put the cart well before the horse.  It's hard to feel understanding, compassion or forgiveness for the person who hurt you while the pain is still excruciating.  

It took me 10 months and a tremendous amount of prayer and introspection to find my way to healing, to be able to let go, to find compassion for and to forgive someone who had hurt me do deeply, but I must say it has been incredibly freeing to get here.  I have felt a profound relief and a fascinating sense of abundance flowing into my life in recent weeks that I don't think I've ever experienced before.  

I wish it for anyone who has suffered the pain of having loved and lost as we have.  

Peace... .and may Grace like rain wash the pain away.  

Liv... .
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« Reply #25 on: June 25, 2011, 05:10:57 PM »

 ? Ooops,I am so sorry if I offended anyone posting on this L3 board. I came here by mistake. I usually post on the L4 board, and felt this article was a very bad one for someone who is trying to stay with their partner - I still feel that way, however I do uderstand all of your pain on the L3 board, and how these kinds of articles can be appealing and steel your resolve to leave.

In case any of you still loves your SO and is having second thoughts about leaving, here is a little of my story, and why I am so down on this article.

During my 20 year r/s with my wife I have read and studied tons of articles, books, DSM proposed revisions etc. We have been separated several times, gone through numerous mariage counselors, my wife was in T and on anti-depressants when I met her, has two DUIs, and is still in denial about having BPD, even though previously diagnosed with it by a Clinical Psychologist - our marriage counselor and her T at the time.

I'm no lily white here either. I have been married more than once, have ADD, can be very anal, picky, detail oriented, and analytical - I was an engineering manager for 30 years Laugh out loud (click to insert in post). I do have four wonderful  grown children,many grandchildren, and hopefully some good characteristics also.

This has been the toughest relationship of my life, and it almost ended many times. My own bad behavior that contributed to this fact was primarily due to my own 'black and white' thinking about my wife. The sad part is that this thinking was primarily driven by books, tapes, videos, articles etc. containing the same type of catch all 'black' description of people with BPD as exhibited in this article - mostly written by the same professional Ts that are called on to help these poor misunderstood people who were usually abused as children in some way.

Thank God for this web site and the great people who administer and moderate it. Only when I really started working on myself alone and started realizing how my strong personality and opinions have exacerbated my r/s problems with my W, have I started to make progress with her. I have learned to show her the type of love, respect, understanding, empathy, trust, and so on that I have felt so terribly lacking from her - without having to get it in return. I can now do this out of empathy and understanding about how her condition  prevents normal responses - even though I already knew that -  rather than going into my own 'black' mood due to the horrible negative BPD descriptions of manipulative, plotting, cunning, lying, promiscuous, mean spirited, people, who will leave you first as a preemptive strike so you can't leave them.

I do both empathize and sympathize with all of you on the L3 board. LIfe is hell where you are, and probably many of your SOs have earned the 'black' feelings you have for them with or with out BPD. Consider this however, If you are really going to recover your own mental health and well being - moving on with empathy and forgiveness is faster, and will better equip you to avoid your own anger and black and white thinking in all your current and future r/s with everyone in your life. Doing the right thing (click to insert in post)
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« Reply #26 on: June 25, 2011, 05:45:44 PM »

Rage is a normal aspect of your healing process, but try to hold these feelings without self-judgment" — Shari Schreiber[/i]

Borderlines can turn good men into monsters. They'll steadily erode your self-worth with subtle/snide comments and other passive maneuvers, even if their words can't be identified as wounding or cruel. Their delivery and tone will make you feel infantalized,, " — Shari Schreiber

I read the article an it sickens me.  This is how every women beater thinks "she made me do it!"  Shari Schreiber's message is loud and clear, you can't treat a BPD women badly enough,,, they deserve it all.

I lurk here mostly, but I feel I needed to say what others are too polite to come out and say.

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« Reply #27 on: June 25, 2011, 06:31:54 PM »

I don't think there is anything twisted in what would be considered to be a "normal" response to a real time event that most people would consider painful, threatening, etc.  Normal responses to real time events such as abandonment, abuse, rage, etc., would include fear, panic, upset, anger, grief, and of course "fight or flight"... .defend or retreat.  Again these are basic survival instincts.  

Livia, I agree with your 'real time event' reactions Vs. past history events BPDs react to, however, consider this; if you realize that your BPD partner is reacting to past events as if they are current ones, and yet you know they aren't, shouldn't your reactions be tempered somewhat. Shouldn't that be part of our empathy for the BPD condition.

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Man and his two little boys get on a bus - boys are acting up running up and down the isle bothering everyone - someone finally yells at the man, can't you control those brats - everone cheers in agreement - man  loudly says, I'm sorry everybody, I wasn't paying attention to them like I usually do. We just left my wife's funeral and they're very upset - his voice starts to break - They loved their mom so much, and we're having a really hard time dealing with all this. She died in a bad car crash last week. - his voice breaks completely - and after a pause he continues in a loud controlled sob - we were standing on the curb waiting for her to pick us up... ., and saw the accident right in front of us. A drunk driver crossed the center divider stripes and hit her head on - the boys stop running and ruch over to their father, who is now along with his boys crying uncontrollably - a hush falls over the bus.

Why did the passengers all of a sudden react so differently, and probably felt ashamed of their group cheers. They were enlightened - learned animportant fact they hadn't known - felt remorseful, and empathized with the man and boys immediately.

Moral of the story. We nons already know about about the trauma and resulting dysfunctional life our pwBPD are living and about the emotioonal chaos that is at the very core of their existance, so maybe with the help of sites like this one and the kind, understanding, patient direction of the administrators and  the wonderful positive support on this site, we can all become enlightened like the passengers on the bus. Doing the right thing (click to insert in post)
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« Reply #28 on: June 25, 2011, 06:57:52 PM »

I don't think there is anything twisted in what would be considered to be a "normal" response to a real time event that most people would consider painful, threatening, etc.  Normal responses to real time events such as abandonment, abuse, rage, etc., would include fear, panic, upset, anger, grief, and of course "fight or flight"... .defend or retreat.  Again these are basic survival instincts.  

Livia, I agree with your 'real time event' reactions Vs. past history events BPDs react to, however, consider this; if you realize that your BPD partner is reacting to past events as if they are current ones, and yet you know they aren't, shouldn't your reactions be tempered somewhat. Shouldn't that be part of our empathy for the BPD condition.

That could be the case if I had known my ex was BPD.  I actually had no idea, so therefore I did not realize my partner was reacting to past events as if they were current ones.  So basically what I saw was simply unwarranted rage directed at me.  I only made the BPD connection through research of domestic violence and emotional abuse (which eventually led me to BPD) after my ex left.  

There are many folks like myself on L3 who had no idea we were dealing with BPD until after the r/s was over and we found ourselves reeling in hurt and bewilderment trying to figure out what had happened.  

Interestingly enough, the same story you quoted could apply to a Non who was acting out in pain and anger as a result of a broken BPD r/s where they were unaware of why such terrible events were happening.  

Compassion and empathy must be a two way street... .there is much pain to go around with this terrible disorder.  

I have wept knowing that my ex was abandoned and abused as a child.  I ached for the child he was - vulnerable and frightened, hurt and with no one to protect him.  Yet I too had a terribly difficult childhood in a chaotic household.  We both had our tragedies... .we simply developed differently.  

Moral of the story. We nons already know about about the trauma and resulting dysfunctional life our pwBPD are living and about the emotioonal chaos that is at the very core of their existance, so maybe with the help of sites like this one and the kind, understanding, patient direction of the administrators and  the wonderful positive support on this site, we can all become enlightened like the passengers on the bus. Doing the right thing (click to insert in post)

And from the perspective of those who have left the r/s, or been left by their BPDex, particularly those who only learned about the disorder their expwBPD experiences subsequent to the r/s ending, there must be understanding and compassion as well, along with time for recovery, and time to complete the grief process.  

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« Reply #29 on: June 25, 2011, 07:18:33 PM »

As I previously posted Shari Schreiber's articles and this site helped explain my exBPD's hurtful and cruel behaviors ... Which in turn helped me to pull the plug.

Shreiber may seem to paint the BPD as all black but she also  believes we have some accountability for being in r/s with a BPD. Her belief is that a core wound to us made us seek out that this type of person.

This board seems to try and not paint the BPD as all black and want us to take some responsibility.

It seems for me the longer I would have stayed knowing that she was BPD the more responsible I would be...

I know I'm far from perfect and have flaws,I also know that sometimes relationships slowly end.

But with my BPD we could spend a wonderful weekend together with her telling me that she wanted a life togethe. A few   hours later  she would go into a low class bar and flirt and makes date. No where did I sign up for this! it wasn't like at the end of a r/s where everything just fizzled out and I didn't see it coming.

Maybe my upbringing led me to be a fixer upper but I truly didn't want her to be a cruel cheating person.

I'm sorry but I have to paint her mostly black pd and all .

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