I hurt for our loss but the meaness we inflicted on each other during our seperation closed me off completely.
I think this is a pretty insighful comment.
And really... . I know this is exactly how
I felt after the final event with crazyx. I had to close myself off to
him completely. To continue in a relationship with him ---- ANY kind of relationship with him would have destroyed me completely.
These things do work both ways cal644. I know my own behaviors during that twisted relationship weren't always perfect. In fact, many of them were not pretty at all. And most of that was because I was expecting emotional maturity from someone who is incapable of giving that.
They are
incapable of many, many things and sometimes it just takes us nons a long time to get it through our skulls that we can't expect emotional maturity from someone who will
NEVER be emotionally mature. To do so, sets US up for failure and heartbreak.
It's valuable to continue to assess what she did, said, heard, etc... . but always make sure to take a look at yourself too. That is the way to get out of this state of mind you are currently in. It's hard, but it's soo worth it.
turtle