9 weeks of NC and still going thru it

[stevenq]

I just made 9weeks of going NC with my BPDgf. It hasn't been easy. I'm really surprised she hasn't tried to contact me by now. The longest we had ever gone with NC is a week. I continue to ruminate and constantly see the same kind of car she drives everywhere I go. Her son lives near me so I know I may run into her at some point. Part of me wants to "show her" that I'm even stronger and have moved on. There is another part that wants to know if she misses me or is thinking about me. I guess this is my ego. Just wondering if she will try and recycle me at some point still? I'm sure she has another victim right now which is why I haven't heard from her. Meantime I take it day by day. Some days are harder than others. My kids are my number one priority now and that has helped me tremendously from staying away. Any words of advice?