Since we had the initial conversation/discussion about going in different directions its like she thinks its a bad dream and she will wake up and the knight on the white horse will come riding back up to her.
So... . you had an initial conversation where you told her, right? What did you say then?
No one can really tell you how to handle things, but if it were me, if I really felt something else had to be said, I would stick to the script of that initial conversation - EVERY time. Nothing more. Nothing less.
What I am looking for if its even possible is some words or phrases to describe to her why we need to split permanently.
If I read your post correctly, you've already stated this in the initial conversation. When we keep explaining or adding more to what we've already said, it sends the message that this is a negotiation. It isn't a negotiation, right?
I'm sure there are many here who will disagree, but carrying on anymore conversations about why this has to happen won't help her "get it." IMO, it will likely cause her to try to draw you right into the kind of conversations you don't want to have. The ones that we all know go NO WHERE.
I don't want to get into another "you said, I said" or you do this or that. I guess I am looking for big picture things I can say that tell the story
Well... . my best guess is that you've already told her the story... . many times. There comes a point where there's nothing left to say... . and to continue trying to explain only makes it worse. Is that where you are?
Yes. But how does one respond when he says"I can't live with all the chaos and drama", and she says"you love drama". She will say the drama is your fault. Even though we know that isn't true.
If you stop having all the conversations, you don't have to hear or respond to this stuff.
turtle