Having the weakest moment(s) I've had in a long time.
Been searching the web for her and her stuff. Stupid, I know.
She's back online dating sites. I know, shouldn't even be looking.
All stings a ton.
Missing the day to day and wanting to write to her. Writing here instead.
Wanting to tell her what I know about BPD and NPD. Tell her this is why we didn't work out. Blah Blah... .
Yes, yes, I realize, I'm having nothing but a weak moment(s) but, it just doesn't feel right.
Shed some light my way?
Thanks.
Also, the desire to want her to contact ME is getting to me as well.
WHY do I wish for this? So, I can have even more proof that it wasn't my fault that this ended? That I will never know what was real and what was a lie?
Think it's wanting to 'validate' what we thought 'we had' with them
As much as it hurts, NC is only way to keep going
They wont change, and they won't admit what they did to us