Hi Wooddragon
I can relate. I'm getting better but I'm further out than you I think. It's hard to know what's healthy connecting and what's unhealthy but at two weeks out maybe you are craving connection to alleviate the raw pain you talk of? And yes I do think it's what can tempt us to recycle.
Have you felt the deep grief yet? Are you running from it?
Can you treat these feelings to connect with another the same way as you would the impulse to break NC? ie. go for a walk, divert yourself with a film/tv/friends/physical exercise?
It seems very positive to me that you can stand back from your behaviour at this point and I'm wondering if PI might help you explore that a little more