Hi SailMonkey,

I recently came back after a hiatus myself. If you don't want to lose your history, I can put you in touch with a staff member that can help you with changing your identity and not losing your old posts. Just private message me. It helps our members to know your past posts to make sure they are helping you the best way they can.
Otherwise, what brings you back now?
Do you have siblings around or friends and family for support?
Best,
mamachelle