I haven't been ready. I am now. I've blocked him on Facebook and Gmail chat, and deleted all text history and his number from my phone. I'm sure I'll still have to see him in public, but I feel confident that I can deal with that and stay away from him; plus, I've enlisted the help of a few friends to act as a buffer in social situations.
It feels really good right now. I know I'll have ups and downs, and if he contacts me, it's not going to be easy to ignore him, but I think he loathes me enough that I don't have to worry about that, at least not for quite awhile. By the time it happens, if it ever does, I'm hopeful that I'll be in a better, stronger place.
If I hadn't had this board, if I hadn't read so many stories that reflect my own, I'd still be holding out hope that he could change. I'd still be desperately trying to make him see logic, and trying to find the right words to make him understand and listen to me. I'd be beating my head against the wall, and I'd still feel like everything that happened was my fault. Thank you, everyone.
