Open door

[Depression = 72% of members]

I have reached a new stage and can say that I feel better. Not sure if I have changed, I feel the same, it is just that I see things differently. Unfortunately, I do not believe that I can truly contribute to the board with my comments and will just express my gratitude for the experiences shared by members and the comments. Merci and take care, C

[catsprt]

I have reached a new stage and can say that I feel better. Not sure if I have changed, I feel the same, it is just that I see things differently. Unfortunately, I do not believe that I can truly contribute to the board with my comments and will just express my gratitude for the experiences shared by members and the comments. Merci and take care, C

[Cumulus]

Hi catsprt, I felt a bit of sadness when I read your post, did I misread or was it written that way. I may be completely out of the loop here so forgive me if I am, I think I know what you mean. I ended up on this site well after the breakup with my xBPDh so I had already worked out most of the issues surrounding him, but that was where I was stuck. I needed to be challenged and to find out information about me. I needed to grow myself. I read the threads and others responses. I began to post some of my own. Sometimes when they would slide down to page two without a response I'd feel   Did no one else feel this way or did no one else feel the sorrow I felt regarding this story. Someone will. It doesn't need to be a lot of people to validate what we feel, it needs only to be just one other to make it worthwhile. For myself, when I read through there might be one response in a hundred that really increases my understanding or causes me to rethink my ideas. That is worth it. If there is one person in a hundred that reads something I have written and it makes them rethink their ideas or it gives their thoughts validation, that is worth it.

So after reading your post I asked myself why I post on here. The reasons I post are:

1) I find people on here who absolutely understand what I have been through. Friends and family are largely in two camps, those who wonder what I ever saw in this controlling, manipulative, angry man and those who wonder why I would divorce this kind loving family man who thinks the world of me. Both are at the same time right and wrong.

2) I receive validation of my own thoughts of my experience with BPD when I read of others experiences.

3) I am often challenged to rethink my ideas and conceptions.

4) I feel anonymous thus able to " think out loud" and receive feed back.

5) I hope my posts can help give someone else strength or support as they find their way.

So, I say this because I think everyone's comments are worthwhile. Yours included. Today what you post may not elicit a response from me but if you don't post tomorrow, that may be the post that will open another door. Hang in there, keep on growin girl.