In need of advice

[majorfrasier]

Hello,

   In a fog as they say. Reading Lessons but have questions. I seriously need help and see no options or future.

   Background

Been with BPD for around 8 yrs. Married for 6.  We have a 5 yr old boy. Wonderful kid, very artistic (r not u)

She has gone bathit crazy again. This time there is no way I can solve the situation.

She has a history of drug use. Now she's given up on anti-depressants (paranoia) and started smoking pot (more paranoia). She says she doesn't trust me because I want to start my own blog. I am the only one working (writing blogs for other people) but she insists that she is working too.

She's in the screaming I hate you stage, insisting I move out, though she has no income and is too messed up from trauma to work. Blah blah, you've heard it all before.

Questions:

I have nowhere to go, no friends no family, dead broke, a check coming that will only cover rent, getting food from a pantry.

I really don't believe she can take care of a 5 yr old.  I can't leave, can't stay.

Grinding poverty is killing me. Where? What?  I'm not an idiot, most of the time, I just can't think.

A shelter? And leave my 5 yr old here? Try to take him away while she is like this?  My god, there is no decent option.

[majorfrasier]

Sorry didn't realize bat guano was considered so serious an offense.

[GreenMango]

Have you talked to a social services counselor about options for you and your child?  it may be time to have her removed if the drug use and behavior is destructive.