seekinghelp2, I would suggest you get counseling. I was afraid myself to go.
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That labeling idea thinking only crazy people need counseling. A good T can help you to get your self esteem up. So you will feel better about yourself. It will make a huge difference in what you will allow. And where you draw the line. I hope the best for you. Keep posting what's going on with you,it helps to share, as there are people who are dealing with the same things you are. Peace