2 cycles with my exUBPDgf(she left me both times, 2nd time even more coldly then first but pattern of behavior, Idealize, Devalue, Discard EXACTLY the same). Here is the quote,
Like the ending scene in Avengers, I tumble from space to Earth. Except this time, there is no Hulk that will save me. :'(
I learned from my 3 years which included 5 recycles, that each time the idealize, devalue, discard cycle through quicker each time & the discard gets more cold, hurtful & aggressive each time!
I believe it's because each recycle is filled with more guilt from things they've put us through so that extra guilt makes us a bigger trigger to bigger amounts of shame. Each time round the odds are worse, the stakes seem higher & the pressure to hold it together too great to be contained. BOOM!