A blocked number called my cell.

[babyducks]

Of course.

It is escalating.

Who the f¥ck else is it... .?

Its going to be all right Ironman.

This I can swear to you.

Because I am just a little bit ahead of you along the road we are both on.

You will reach a point in the road where the hurt and the pain and the love does not strangle, but is, in itself a strength.

I promise.

Take a couple of deep breaths.  Relax.   Do everything you can think of to de-stress.  even drink chamomile tea if that helps.

You are not the same person you were 6 months ago.  You have grown.   You literally can not repeat the past.

'ducks

[Ironmanrises]

Rollercoaster,

I am really sorry that you have experienced such god awful behavior.

I can feel the hurt in your words... .

That uneasy feeling... .

Of his presence you speak of... .

I can so understand that.

The 2 different people... .

You refer to... .

I know exactly what you mean.

The contradictions... .

Of those 2 people... .

Is horrifying.

Jarring.

And it is intertwined... .

In 1 person... .

The person we let get inside... .

Our inner sanctum.

In our cases... .

We let in 2 people.

And that other side... .

Once inside our inner sanctum... .

Has innumerable... .

Consequences on us.

Your wariness... .

I can most certainly feel.

I am feeling that now.

And it scares me.

Keep posting on here.

Know that you are not alone.

That what you have experienced... .

Is real... .

Unfortunately... .

But we get you... .

100%.

We know exactly... .

What you saw.

Hang in there Rollercoaster.

Baby ducks.

Thank you.

That is what I want to reach... .

But before I reach that... .

I will have to survive... .

Further attempted intrusions... .

In my last refuge.

And that will take... .

All of my strength.

I feel like a submerged submarine... .

Trying to stay in radio silence... .

In the depths of the ocean... .

And she is trying to find me... .

And dropping depth charges... .

Ever so near me... .

To cause me to surface... .

And reveal my position... .

Or destroy me... .

In the very depths... .

I am in... .

Trying to allude her.

I cannot submerge any deeper.

I am at maximum depth.