13 days today! That's the longest I've gone. I honestly thought she might have called over the weekend, but nothing. I've had weak moments today, but stayed strong. I told her not to contact me, so I can't break that now.
How do you cope with the fact that someone, in my case I still care for her, never contacting you again?
I struggle with this daily. My high functioning uBPDexgf is extremely stubborn and proud. I was the one that broke off the relationship because I just couldn't take it anymore. I have way too much self-respect for what I was going through. Nevertheless, I sometimes wish she would contact me even if I ignored her because I would then feel like I was in a position of power (even though I'm not sure what I would do if she did). I know though that there is a strong possibility that I may never hear from her again and I hate the thought of that but I cannot heal and become a better person until I accept that. I don't know what the future holds, but a relationship, at least for me, requires 2 people willing to grow together and I cannot be in a relationship where I'm the only one trying to grow. That being said, although it hurts unbelievably knowing I may never again speak to the one time love of my life, the best I could do is focus on my own life and hope that I can find someone willing to love me the way I'm capable of loving them.
