I am at a loss today - this morning is probably the first day from all the ups and downs, fights etc with my BPD gf, that my exhaustion is finally rearing it's ugly head.
The only way I can think to describe the situation is "hey, I know your obviously upset and you just found out your grandpa is on his death bed, but wait a minute while I lecture/yell
you about the art of doing laundry and how you f*** it up".
That's the short story and I am tired. It takes so much energy to constantly be mindful of every little thing. I bust my balls and rarely get a thank you or even an appreciative nod. It seems like she is always mad at me for something I've said or did or screwed up.
Her anger towards me has turned to physical abuse. Every time, regardless of physical aspect being present or not, I excuse her behavior and tell myself that she only responds this way because of her BPD/PTSD. I don't have the energy to go home and fight with her today. I don't know what to say to her. I am at the point that when she does start to yell, I shake, my hands visibly shake.
I locked myself in the bathroom and cried myself to sleep last night and her only concern was/is her ruined article of clothing, that we never had a consveration about the do's and don't with it... Even this morning, I msg'ed her to see how she was feeling and her response was that she has nothing to say to me. fml
idk... .dying family member vs. a ruined piece of clothing. I know which one would take priority in my world.
