Hi Murbay,
you certainly are worried about her and who would not . It is unclear where this downward spiral of events lead and what you should do.
I am truly sorry to hear that and cannot even begin to imagine how you must be feeling right now. I wish I had the right words to give you right but just know that I care and I'm right here if you need anything xx
When it comes to messages you message is quite good. From the way it was formulated it could be of course improved. When formulating messages I often end up with similar messages and then take a step back and eliminate a few or even all "I"s from it. It is a bit tricky here as it would be speculation of what she feels so it may not be possible to eliminate the "I". Still with "I" less is more. Also more straight addressing of the matter spelling out suicide, shock, not having answers, deep sadness somewhere etc. may be validating - it is not necessary to attribute them to her. Lastly instead of telling her that you are there for her you could show listening behavior and ask her what she needs. All this is just dotting the i's and crossing the T's, the message was good as it went.
Every inch of my being is telling me to go over there right now and just give her a hug.
Hugging would not be fixing. You are not trusting your instincts? What you think would be the right thing to do in normal circumstances i.e. a relationship that had an internal crisis and suddenly a gigantic external crisis happens? What is the worst case scenario when you follow your gut?
Overcoming co-dependency requires us to become strict with boundaries and limit what we do. But then humane boundaries need also be intelligent and compassionate. We seldom talk about this here on the board as getting any boundary up is a challenge for us co-dependents (and frankly for anyone else dealing with the boundary assaults we face). Still boundaries are grounded in values and most values exist in some form of hierarchy. What goals and values are in conflict here and how do you resolve that might be a question to ask yourself.