damn... i just wow.

[thesculptor]

i finally feel ready to let go... . how long will this feeling last? how long will i stay ok with letting go.

only God can tell.

what i do know is its definitely time for me to build my company. for me to establish myself for more sucesss.

for me i felt good to turn to the person who was fun, loving, just sweet at times.

when her irrational side came out, and it did often, shes the last person i wanted to be around.

and at the end of the day, thats what this is about for me. thats why i walk away. tired of being hurt, tired of being ignored, tired of being put down, tired of being yelled at

belittled. just tired. me at my biggest part of myself can see her as someone that has a disability.

was i perfect? no... . i just know i dont deserve her treatment.

so... . tonight there is a gathering at a bar, i know the girls bday party, i know she was recently abused phsyically from her x. abuse sucks.

you just want to ... . let things get better. so hopefully. ill play more guitar and dj again. im going to focus on getting in shape for the crossfit open.

and just keep myself focused on positive things. i feel better. i feel that the storm has passed. my emotions of hope have subsided. i am to tired to fight to save us.

im to tired ... . if God wills it... . he will have to save us... . and while im not ready to move on. i know i can move on when the time is right

recently a  old friend told me he divorced his girl that was bipolar. ... . this is one of the weirdest situations of my romantic life.

i dont wish to rebound, i just want to be healthy, productive, positive, thankful. and forgive and let this period of hurt go.

sincerly,

sculptor

[Surnia]

i dont wish to rebound, i just want to be healthy, productive, positive, thankful. and forgive and let this period of hurt go.

Focusing on your side is a great way to overcome difficult times or rebound attempts! Keeping yourself busy, concentrated on new projects.

Hang in there!