What I'm asking is, is this a sign or confirmation that she never cared? I can't possibly think what could run in her mind to justify not sending a message. I don't know what to tell myself or how to deal with such profound hurt.
hi Invictus,
it hurts a lot when we expect something from a person with BPD, especially if is support on a very challenging situation. I expected a lot from the BPD person in my life, i was also very dissapointed and very sad when she never called nor supported when i really needed her to be by my side.
I cant answer your question if she never cared. All i can say, is that pwBPD cant seem to show the stability a person wtihout the disorder would have, a pwBPD can change their mind quickly, going from one extreme to the other one, so at times they can be supportive ,and at times they just can't. Dont take it personal.
from what i read, this was a challenging situation for you, and you had to face it alone. how did it go? did you really needed her text for you to go ahead? surely receive her text would have been a great comfort to you, but, necessary for you to go ahead?
I had to learn not to put too much hope on expecting support from my ex... but to stand on my own ground and own it. (was and is a challenge still, is not easy... but at least i can rely on myself)