Evidence of healing

[Sitara]

I was shopping yesterday and while waiting in line at the checkout, I found myself giggling and being silly with my toddler.

This little, simple moment, was in reality a huge step for me.

Normally I would have been annoyed for having to wait. Normally rushing through my head would have been the million other tasks I needed to get done. I would have been frustrated when my preschooler asked the same question over and over again.

But there I was, enjoying just being.

Coming from a past where I became so emotionally numb that I wondered if I would ever be able to feel happy again, this was a momentous occasion. And the fact that it was over something so trivial when I've been unable to be content with where I was in life showed I was changing. I don't even know if I can express how surprising it was that I was in public. I had learned to be so guarded and so afraid of what people thought of me, yet here I was being silly in front of other people without even a thought to what they were thinking.

I wanted to tell you about this because I think it's important to show that it is possible to heal and become the person you want to be. I'm taking steps towards my personal goals, and although I'm not done, this is progress. There is light at the end of the tunnel. All the work you're putting into remembering and healing can make life better.

Stay strong everyone, things do get better.

[StarStruck]

Really good to hear, it feels good just to 'be' doesn't it. Well done!

[Legacymaker]

Nice to hear this Sitara!

Children have a way of opening our hearts, if we let them 

[AsianSon]

Congratulations Sitara!  Good for you!  And good for your toddler too!  And good for us that you have shared!

Keep the momentum going ... . you've inspired me to try and focus on the light (however small and dim) in the tunnel ... . because as you've reminded everyone, the tunnel doesn't last forever! 

Cheers!

[lucyhoneychurch]

This put such a smile in my heart, Sitara.

Feeling like if others can get a grip on so much pain, I can too - such a crucial step for me so many times in my life.

Thank you for bearing witness that hope is what we cling to.