I feel like my insides are jumping out of my skin

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i guess im just going through some really intense side effects of this relationship... . Its been a little scary with the sleeping disturbances and intense feelings of anxiety.

I deserve to feel better but im scared i never will... . wht the hell did i stay so long... . look what its done to me...

Want to just stay in bed for a long time... . until this gets better... . stay in bed and watch every season of mad men

I feel like ive gone mad... .

thanks   for reading

[Boisnix79]

i guess im just going through some really intense side effects of this relationship... . Its been a little scary with the sleeping disturbances and intense feelings of anxiety.

I deserve to feel better but im scared i never will... . wht the hell did i stay so long... . look what its done to me...

Want to just stay in bed for a long time... . until this gets better... . stay in bed and watch every season of mad men

I feel like ive gone mad... .

thanks   for reading

[corraline]

I have felt like this many many times.  It scared the crap out of me to be honest.  Things are getting better.  Please try to give yourself a break. Take really really good care of yourself.  Its like a full time job for me at the moment. Write a list of the things that make you feel good.  Do your best to accomplish some of them or at least one of them.  If you are wanting to cave, then do something nice in your cave.  Nice music, good food, relaxing tea, nice book, flowers in your room.  Something at least.

I had to absorb myself in a series for the first bit too.  I needed a bit of a distraction.  I think thats ok.

I watched all four seasons of Downton Abbey ! 

[free-n-clear]

   It does get better, Boisnix79. It takes time, and sometimes it feels like it's one step forward, two steps back, but you get there eventually. Keep reading and posting here, and keep doing things for YOU. Get back into a hobby that you've neglected since you got into the r/s, get out and socialise with your friends and family, rent a DVD of your all-time favourite movie. All of us here have spent time in the depths of despair, and we're all helping each other get through it. Stay strong, brother. 

[myself]

It's a detox process. Detaching is weaning ourselves off of something that was harming us. I have friends who are recovering drug addicts and they described getting off drugs in very similar ways to what many of us here go through. The farther away we get, the more we change the patterns, the better. One of the facts here is that it does indeed get darker before the dawn. But the dawn does come. We can claim it for our own.