advice for me please

[Before you can make things better, you have to stop making them worse...]

I have to admit it but I am an antisocial/narcissist. That is me. That is who I am. Before my ex BPD, I was relatively happy. Never was I interested in long term relat. but then she came a long and it was an exhausting and joyous ride. This much is true.

But this is where I am now. I know many people but I have no friends. With her, despite how sick she is(and me) and however co-dependent our relat. was, I had a friend and now I am back to where I was. NO friends here... just me. For me it's a hard pill to swallow. I couldn't stay with her any longer yet now I feel like the loneliest person on the earth. I know who I am and I don't know where to go, I don't know what to do.

This is honesty from a pathetic narcissist/ anti-social poor excuse for a human being. Can anyone offer some advice/help?... . please

[cron65]

I have to admit it but I am an antisocial/narcissist. That is me. That is who I am. Before my ex BPD, I was relatively happy. Never was I interested in long term relat. but then she came a long and it was an exhausting and joyous ride. This much is true.

But this is where I am now. I know many people but I have no friends. With her, despite how sick she is(and me) and however co-dependent our relat. was, I had a friend and now I am back to where I was. NO friends here... just me. For me it's a hard pill to swallow. I couldn't stay with her any longer yet now I feel like the loneliest person on the earth. I know who I am and I don't know where to go, I don't know what to do.

This is honesty from a pathetic narcissist/ anti-social poor excuse for a human being. Can anyone offer some advice/help?... . please

[AwakenedOne]

Hey Cron,

Maybe doing volunteer work in your community would be something you might want to look into. If you live in the city usually there are plenty of organizations that need people to help in some form or another. Even in smaller towns there are more than likely some opportunities to volunteer. You will come in contact with people, maybe even meet a healthy woman that way. For the most part people that volunteer have a kind heart. Regardless, your still keeping busy (taking your mind off past grief) and helping others. Also getting involved in your church with group events is another option. Be gentle on yourself.

Peace,

AO

[bpdspell]

You say you were happy before your ex BPD came into your life so what can you do that will bring you back to that place of happiness? That's what these breakups are about: getting back to ourselves. Your ex isn't the period at the end of your life's sentence and life does go on without them so you need to DO YOU.

If you're naturally anti social then what can you do in your alone time that will bring you joy? What were you doing before you met your ex?

Spell

[Mutt]

What are your interests? Check meetup.com, your local subreddit.

Do you enjoy sports? How about martial arts? Teaches focus, fitness.

Take an art class, cooking class, dance lessons, all places with people and potential to make friends.

[Boisnix79]

Cron I find it great that youre being honest. Thank you as its bery refreshing... .

I just joined a MEETUP.com for antisocial people actually... . you may want to as well... .