Thanks Banshee... .
What you said was right --"wanted it to trigger him into thinking he had lost me for good and contact me" and that was what i was hoping and afraid too by not breaking NC.
And if i would to wish her, I am also afraid that she would trash me with it... . 2 weeks to ponder.
"12 years is a long time maybe someone in a longer relationship would have a better choice"
I think its the same... . when she pack her things to leave that night, it was like she was packing to go for her holiday.
"he didn't care about me or what was going on with my life why should I acknowledge his special day when I was obviously not so special after all"
Maybe he did and giving you the silent treatment? Maybe he don't. I noticed them being over egoistic and would not initiate or know how to express what they feel humanely... . we could be completely wrong about this... . I would like to think now that they are as cold as what was said about them so I don't feel so down about it but at the very same moment it draws me back to think maybe they felt the same about us too... . the reasoning is hard and especially when the heart is not in sync with the head... .
Hope it gets better for us... .
