just a tip. 2010 is a member here. i find him to be one of the most people understanding the disorder very well. he is very logical. i suspect that he is a psychologist or something
read his posts. it will help you a lot and resolve a lot of dilemmas. personally, i find one of the factors to reach radical acceptance is understanding what you have been dealing with. you will really understand the disorder very well from 2010's posts. i can see that this man has done his homework after the break up.
on another note, you can do it. i am back to my life. it is doable people. i am focusing on myself now. i was living in self neglect for long. i know this will sound irrational for you now but you will reach this point where you will find that you slightly contributed in this mess with your behavior (i am not shaming or accusing here believe me). i myself contributed to my mess. but i forgive myself and i am embracing my true self now. i am being kind to him. i am giving him a hug every morning. he will be ok. ok what ? he will be great and awesome.
this experience of yours is a gift from God to find yourself. do not lose this opportunity and bury your feelings again as you did when you were a child. there are other people out there who would envy you for this wake up call if they can see the full picture and can understand that eventually you will be ok. some people are not granted this opportunity and live with these buried feelings in limbo for their whole lives . Trust the pain and embrace it. it will get you to wonderful places. do not forget to be kind to yourself during findings and realizations. during the pain and depression, eat, sleep and exercise well. hold back on smoking and caffeine please. if you get panic attacks you can control it. just google how to. I am 10 Kms away from wonderland. if you are going through hell keep going please.
