Getting over the "beautiful, sexy, intense" side of a BPD ex fiance

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So, my BPD ex fiance left me 3 weeks ago and due to a police incident involving me and her family, I am now enforced not to contact her. Things are pretty much dead in the water after all that has happened and I am just pleased to be able to have my 2 yr old son for over half the week, working around my full time job.

The hardest thing I am finding is that despite all the rows, the low points and the feeling of not knowing what I'd done wrong to upset her, I am really struggling to get over the passion, the intensity and when I see pictures of her the thought that someone else will be enjoying those amazing early days like I did. I keep telling myself (having spoken to one of her ex's who suffered exactly the same 3 year evolution, being idolised, being proposed to by her, having a child, then splitting when the child is nearly 2 (and the normal family routine begins)) that it's a vicious circle and that after the calm comes the storm, and this will happen to her next victim, but it just doesn't help. My mates and family tell me I'm better off and should look forward but after experiencing such extreme highs and being idolised I find it hard to imagine ever having that again or feeling so much passion for someone.

Anyone been there and conquered these feelings, at the moment I have heard there is no one else in her life and she "just wants to be happy with her 2 sons" and I know she was single for 9 months before we met, but she's unblocked me on her facebook and even set up a fake profile to "check up on me" when she had blocked me.

I know that in the long run, I will be happier without the issues and unhappy moments, as regardless of where we went, family holidays, nights out, family occasions, meal there would be some kind of disagreement, whether it be an outrageous accusation of me "checking someone out", or even a row over which route we walk home from town (such trivial issues) but it's the feeling of not giving my son a normal family (with Mummy and daddy) and also clinging onto the fact that my ex was stunning to look at and so fun and passionate at the start.

Any help on moving on and getting over her would be much appreciated... .

Thanks

CC

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So, my BPD ex fiance left me 3 weeks ago and due to a police incident involving me and her family, I am now enforced not to contact her. Things are pretty much dead in the water after all that has happened and I am just pleased to be able to have my 2 yr old son for over half the week, working around my full time job.

The hardest thing I am finding is that despite all the rows, the low points and the feeling of not knowing what I'd done wrong to upset her, I am really struggling to get over the passion, the intensity and when I see pictures of her the thought that someone else will be enjoying those amazing early days like I did. I keep telling myself (having spoken to one of her ex's who suffered exactly the same 3 year evolution, being idolised, being proposed to by her, having a child, then splitting when the child is nearly 2 (and the normal family routine begins)) that it's a vicious circle and that after the calm comes the storm, and this will happen to her next victim, but it just doesn't help. My mates and family tell me I'm better off and should look forward but after experiencing such extreme highs and being idolised I find it hard to imagine ever having that again or feeling so much passion for someone.

Anyone been there and conquered these feelings, at the moment I have heard there is no one else in her life and she "just wants to be happy with her 2 sons" and I know she was single for 9 months before we met, but she's unblocked me on her facebook and even set up a fake profile to "check up on me" when she had blocked me.

I know that in the long run, I will be happier without the issues and unhappy moments, as regardless of where we went, family holidays, nights out, family occasions, meal there would be some kind of disagreement, whether it be an outrageous accusation of me "checking someone out", or even a row over which route we walk home from town (such trivial issues) but it's the feeling of not giving my son a normal family (with Mummy and daddy) and also clinging onto the fact that my ex was stunning to look at and so fun and passionate at the start.

Any help on moving on and getting over her would be much appreciated... .

Thanks

CC