Thank you Caredverymuch
We try so hard to take ours lives back in our control. We are on a good path for sure heading towards much better times. But it seems that during dreaming the logical mind has no control, it creates a story by itself or releases/fantasies... daily-life situations and every time you wake up it keeps you daydreaming again.
Somehow i try to look for the lesson in it or if the mind has a self-maintaining purpose during dreaming and this way we should feel better in the morning... .
Nothing i've experienced before had that much inpact on me then what happend with her.
Take care all of you!
Very true. For me, the logic of having to learn so much about the disorder after being left with no closure and fully erased has been a good deal of emotional work. I do understand much more so now as well as understanding how and why I was drawn to this type of bond. All the logical effort has been done on my own and clearly continues. Whats hard is the subconscious. Bc despite all we know, this was a person I loved a great deal who came into my life in great big ways and then just left and bcame someone else who ignores my existence. Thats all stuff the subconscious cant suppress despite the knowledge base.
