Found lost texts last night...

[Deeno02]

Journal: Found forgotten about texts last night. Some where from the begining and some towards the end of the r/s. How happy we seemed. All those Medical questions you asked about for the kids, the thank yous for me coming over in the dead of night because a kid was sick, talking about heat lighting and sharing in its majesty. Little did I know that it was all smoke and mirrors. I read them again, cried over them and then deleted them. Your a horrible person and you deserve nothing. I have my own faults I brought into the relationship, but the one thing that wasnt open for discussion was my love for you. It was whole and complete and I took all you threw at me and I still stayed. Of course you wont ever realize that because all you saw was me being mean or abandoning you or something. You never saw how I looked at you with love while you tore me down. You never saw how tired I was of being beat down, slowly withdrawing into myself while you belittled me for the simple things in life I apparently couldnt handle or do right... in your eyes anyway. When I was sick with a cold or something, you made fun of me. While you were sick with your fibro or back, I was there taking care of you, complained about nothing. Again, your a horrible person and I fully understand now why your husband left you, I dont agree with the way it was conducted, but I understand why. Your horrible and I wish nothing but bad for you in your life.