Last night was interesting. But with each day comes something new. And yes I'm mildly angry, but that's an improvement. Bull___ Artist basically sums her up. Except she is truly dangerous and suffering newfound damage to her already fragile ego and to her reputation as a care provider. What a joke. She must be... .anyway, this is about my healing and expressing myself and hoping to help others.
I've been shaken pretty hard throughout life and did not need this living hell either. But I asked for it and I got it. I was the one walking blindly, not setting firm boundaries, and basically avoiding to ask any hard questions to find out more about this woman that I was now professing my love for. I am accepting personal responsibility, but no longer blaming myself. I'm so much happier out. And truly glad she was able to latch onto some new supply. The older they get the harder that will become. Haha. Your supply will eventually end, but your burning desires will not.
I used to think that the past didn't matter all that much, until I learned of yet another complete and total lie and her not telling me her ex husband has been HIV+ for over a decade and when she found out she still married him. I don't know about the later part of that, but the HIV+ status was real. I read it in the divorce papers. Apparently she's safe and I've tested negative 2x so far. I believe I will be okay. I've just entered my second month out. Imagine finding that out on your third day of NC by court order after having her arrested for 2xassult 1xharrassemnt and 1xstrangulation as she attempted to smother me with both hands and her bodyweight after I fell asleep.
I'm taking back my power and not giving her anymore of myself to feed on. The Assistant DA informed me that the OP will be in effect FOR LIFE! Thank you God. One oddball contact and she goes to jail. I think I can safely say I'm done for good and things are looking so much better for me already. I'm back driving my own bus again - how it should be. And I don't need to have a woman next to be to be happy. I though woman wanted love and companionship, not the pile of sh^t that I received. And I'm vowing, after this to keep it that way. No commitments for a while. No moving in together. No more rushing into a fantasy. It's time to put the proof back into the pudding. What does that actually mean?
She is a true Witch and I feel for the poor ass (even though it hurts and I'm not getting my abuse dose) that SOB truly has no idea what he into. Quite the sticky web. So glad I am out. But learning the truth and not having much of a clue until the very end was quite painful. But a great lesson learned.
I was able to cut her off and she can no longer feed me the cowardly abuse. Her pride? I think not. She's losing her game and she knows it. I'm too (*******
for her and it kills her that she's forced to have to disconnect by law (force). No more of her harassment and spiteful behaviors. No more random, but quite intentional, manipulation and practicing lies. No more everything that has anything to do with you. I cut off her head and I'm in love with every minute of it. That's what she gets for trying to completely destroy me nonstop. And this isn't over. We still have business to address through the court system. My lawyer is on board and soon enough I will begin MY attack and get back what belongs to me.
How's that for a Crazy Bi&ch?
I'm glad I'm out and you should be too. Good luck moving forward.
Lying is a sport to them. Well at least it was to her.
Her mind is stuck in grade school because she acts like a spoiled child and behaves like the angry little girl that the cute boys just don't like. Probably beats them up too. Because she knows they can't fight back without being named a pussy. Pussy, pussy, pussy. I'll not forget anytime soon.
