hello all.
im needing some advice or insight to my situation with my BPD girlfriend (im actually not sure if shes still my girlfriend or not... .)
weve been together for about 9 months now, always been a volatile relationship. arguments sometimes, but with patience on my part, we always worked out.
to be honest, theres been lots of times when she was just too much for me, and id dump her, only for her to be calling me the very next day saying 'have you calmed down yet?' in fact, we would have lots of fights, and each time shed be calling and texting until i took her back. and if i didnt answer her calls or texts, shed bang on my bedroom window when she got off work!
she always said that id never be able to get rid of her!
shes always been very clingy, calling me from her job every few hours to ask where i was. i was okay with it. she spent every free hour with me. i loved the attention. i could tell it was a more obsessive love she had, like, "we're together, and thats final" (she actually told this to me once!)
when i first met her, she was a total party girl, and as we spent more time together, shes calmed down, and i was happy with where things were going.
last monday, we were out drinking (alot) and we had an argument. i was really mad that she didnt seem to care about my feelings on the situation, so i decided to leave. she then became very violent and started biting me and scratching at my face. the police were called, and she was arrested.
for about 5 days i hated her! i cut her off and didnt contact her.
she didnt contact me either.
normally when wed have fights that were really bad, shed call the next day crying and id forgive her. but this time neither of us called.
then after i calmed down (yesterday) i gave her a call. nothing.
my number wasnt blocked like she normally does when we have a fight, but no answer either.
i left a voicemail that im sorry and i miss her terribly.
nothing still.
later in the evening when i knew she was at work, i sent her a text that i miss her and to please call me. again nothing.
i dont know what this means. its been a week since ive heard from her.
i know shes keeping tabs on my instagram, so what gives?
i also know that she thinks im the one who called the cops on her. she would think like that.
*have i been discarded?
*why isnt my number blocked if she doesnt want to talk to me like shed normally do?
*what do i do?
id appreciate any help. thanks.
