After a bit over a week of NC with my (trying to be ex) friend, she sends me a message. I swear she is some kind of psychic freak
It's not the first time the timing of her contact has been weird. Last Friday I had decided to have a break from Facebook for a couple of months - having nearly 100 mutual friends as her - started to become a bit of a problem (I deleted her a few weeks ago). Today I created a new Facebook account only to use messenger to keep in contact with friends overseas.
Tonight I went on to my old account to see if another friend had contacted me back... .low and behold there is a message that says, "how are you lovely?". Just when I felt like I had taken back power over my life, she messages me being NORMAL.
I know this probably seems insignificant compared to what all of you have been through (my heart goes out to all of you after reading some of the stories ), but it's really frustrating me. I felt like I finally reached a good point today... .acceptance. I finally started accepting that she has a disorder - that her 'all over the place' behavior is who she is - that the original her was part of the disorder too. I had worked through the trauma and pain I felt last week. Cried out the hurt and loss. I also accepted that I may not hear from her again (probably kidding myself there). I wasn't as anxious at work today either.
So she doesn't contact me for a whole week at work - keeping me on edge after she said she would touch base - now comes back all normal. This is shorter time between contact than the previous. I hadn't heard from her for nearly 3 weeks last time. I am literally shaking my head.
Thanks for letting me vent
