Welcome my friend... .I want to tell you that I am two weeks No Contact with my ex... .First lets put things in perspective... .DELETE HER NUMBER... .Why, you are allowing yourself to be attached to her... .she is cancerous and you are allowing the cancer to win instead of seeking treatment... .I learned the hard way... .after I broke up with my ex I thought a made a mistake and went back to her, but she didn't just take me back, she twisted my brain into a pretzel by playing mind games... .ignoring calls, posting pics of other guys on instagram etc and on top of that she was just using me for sex... .you have to let her go... .and the first step is to admit that she is poison... .when you do that, take a deep breath and meditate... .think about the break up and how she actually treated you... .the bad always outweighs the good when it comes to a borderline girlfriend or boyfriend... .you are a KING and she treated you like a PEASANT! Remember that! You are a king who needs a queen! She was not your queen but your dictator... .You deserve gold and you got sand... .Take care of yourself and DATE! Good luck my friend stay strong