I feel compelled to write her and get my feelings out. Her soon.to be ex best friend.suggested.journaling and.maybe sensing.it.to her when im done.if I still.feel I wantherback after all that... has.anyone done.so? If so, what did you do? Letters to SO, toyourself? What did you do with it?
Probably every day I have something I want to 'say' to her. Reflecting on many of the incident where I should have said NO! or 'You're bloody lying... .AGAIN!' but I don't, and will not. It may sound a little bonkers but sometimes, when I'm alone, I actually say these things out loud. I see it as some kind of exorcising of the toxic feelings.
By contacting her you're feeding the illness, and yes, she is more than likely to use it against you... .If you ever feel like getting things off your chest post it up here... I do it myself, and it helps... .