Hello all.
Ive been reading all the post on this board. Dam what a disorder to unleash on people. We all have been run over by the BPD train , its time to get up dust yourself off & work on a better you. Sooner than later.
The best revenge is no revenge , making your life better without your BPDex will tweak their nipples no doubt , the BPDers will find out you are enjoying life without you throwing it in their face . effin stalkers.
My 2 yr r/s with my dexBPDgf was definitely a horrible experience and just what I needed (may sound nuts now you will get here, i never would have thought this way fresh out of the r/s), im starting to see some positive changes within myself through the healing process.
Ive always been an introvert , im starting to strike up conversations with random people. (Was never me even before the BPD r/s)
I am not and never have been this horrible person she tried to make me and others believe I was. (Crazy how BPDers have this effect. )
I was always told (by my father).asking for help is a weakness. After the BPD R/S i needed a ___ ton of help. I reached out on this board and one family member who actually sat a read books on BPD with me. Which is huge for me. (Read next line)
My BPDex always said in her rages (no one cares about you not even your family) over and over and I started to believe this crap. Thanks to this board I realized this was projection.
Ive set boundaries that will never be compromised.
I wake up and the added stress from my dexBPDgf is just none existent. Wich is an incredible relief.
My self esteem is on the rise again. Im starting to like the person i see in the mirror more.
I realized that dammit I MATTER again. My feeling , wants , desires and happiness. No more putting myself second constantly. I will never let anyone have this kind of power over me again.
Ive have learned to not worry about stuff I can not change.
When I meet people the
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I still see good in people that deserve a closer look. (not a change but I thought this was gone)
Im enjoying the little things in life again. I so missed these.
She was NEVER my girl , it was just my turn.
Just to name a few. With out the BPD experience I would have not grown as much as I have because I was not aware of most of my issues. I always knew i was a strong person , but dam I am a very strong person. To come out of this better than before. I see and feel my self getting better and better. It is still a very rough road but well worth it.
This BPD family is amazing. All the people who have helped me by talking to me and just reading post let me know, I was not alone , what I was in for , and the steps to take to start the healing process. Yea I didnt strictly follow the advice at first to my dismay, I do now and it was the best decision for ME! So thank you all , I only hope I can give back what has been givin to me on this board.
I still get to wake up and hug a beautiful person, it just sucks when i hit my head on the mirror.
