Approaching 30 days N/C, longest I've done

[dagwoodbowser]

So I was with my diagnosed xBPD gf for almost 3 years and did 4 recycles. First time I was like a school boy begging and pleading for responses and closure. 2nd and 3rd time I was so hurt and wounded that I walked away telling myself I would Never look back, but after about 20-30 days of N/C on my part I would get some random text or email, I would respond and I would be lured back in, used and abused, then discarded again. This last time I flat out told her I was Blocking her number from texts, calls and emails (which I did). I am approaching 30 days N/C on my end or hers and I am honestly anxious. Each day that passes I think, obsess less and less about her and relationship, but the are some days like today where I crave her. I want her to call or I check for an email. Then I flip flop back to fully knowing and understanding what the outcome will be if I make contact. I've seen the movie before and the good guy dies at the end left wounded and bleeding on the sidewalk. The first 10 days were far too painful and never want to experience those first few days again. I'm glad another 20 have gone by.

[newtothis28]

You can do it!