Hey Going-
I am moving from Indiana to Florida in 3 months.
WooHoo! Florida in the summer. You will not be cold, guaranteed!
I'm in a weird place.
I know it's better to be alone than in a bad relationship.
But I find myself 'lost'.
Yeah, I know the feeling, and 'lost' is one way to look at it. Change is both uncomfortable and full of opportunity, and lost can also be full of options and possibilities, exciting when you think about it, and there are 20 million people in Florida, 20 million potential new friends, take your pick!
"If you don't know where you're going, any road will take you there." George Harrison on options
I am used to doing things for 'others', not for myself.
I don't know how to do things "for me" w/o feeling guilty, selfish... .
I like the frame that unless we take care of ourselves first, we have nothing to give. It's critical to fill ourselves up first, and in that sense selfishness isn't a bad thing, in fact it's mandatory.
I am excited about starting a new life.
BUT sometimes I struggle to get off the couch.
I don't think there's a human on the planet who hasn't felt that way. It's both the excitement and uncertainty of change, the paradox, also why 'look before you leap' and 'he who hesitates is lost' both have staying power.
When will this pass? When will I be comfortable alone?
Repetition is the mother of skill, and the cool thing about creating a life for yourself, independent of anyone, is that we become mighty attractive when we do. When you show up in the world coming from a place of abundance, because you say so and have created a life that supports it, instead of a place of need, the needs tend to get met because we attract people who meet them. It's a mindset, an empowering one. Take care of you!