I'm feeling really lousy this weekend.

[StarOfTheSea]

Hi all,

Just feeling like crap and need to vent. I'm feeling really down this weekend, not sure why. I keep thinking about my exBPDbf and how life is apparently rosy for him and my replacement. I feel like he has everything to look forward to: marrying his new fiancee, watching his daughter grow up and I have nothing to look forward to. Next weekend will be even worse because of Mother's Day since I miscarried last June. I'm really feeling like he came out a winner and I came out a broken, traumatized loser.

[Dunder]

I'm sorry Star. You made me feel better earlier when you commented on my post about how pwBPD have a sixth sense for choosing a partner. Thank you for that. The nice thing about this message board is that at least when we feel bad we can make another person feel better even if we can't make ourselves feel better some times. I've had a bad day too.  Oh well, tomorrow will be better.

[cosmonaut]

I'm so sorry that you are feeling so badly, Star.  I certainly had many times when I felt similar to how you are feeling during my breakup.  I still do sometimes.  These are extremely emotional and loaded breakups, and it will take some time to heal.  I'm also so sorry to hear about your miscarriage.  I can appreciate how Mother's Day will be emotional for you.  Please remember that all of us are here for you.  You're not alone.   

Are there any things that you enjoy doing that you could plan for this coming week?  Something just for you?