I started therapy today

[Depression = 72% of members]

The subject says it all. I came to the conclusion over the weekend that I can no longer do this on my own. A friend's wife works at the facility in my city and she helped me with paperwork/intake this morning. I went in at 10am and was talking to a therapist by 11am. Today was just very very good. My therapist seems to be well-versed with BPD behaviors and she understood everything I was saying and showed me a few simple ways to cope with anxiety when it starts to take over. There have been other factors over the last 5 years that really fed into my anxiety and I just want to be healthy again. We talked about all aspects of my life and will continue to see her for as long as we both feel I need it. I also made an appt. with my general practitioner and will look into getting on some meds that will also help with the anxiety. With that being said, this will be my last post on this board. It is time to move forward with my life and that means I no longer want hash out my xBPDgf's behavior, wonder when the next recycle may happen, or relive the past behaviors that caused me so many problems. I need to focus on myself now and work on making a better version of myself. I have neglected myself for far too long and I need to change. I've known this for a long time, I think it finally took hearing it from an objective 3rd party this morning. Thank you to everyone for your kind words and I wish you all peace and happiness.

[mks10]

The subject says it all. I came to the conclusion over the weekend that I can no longer do this on my own. A friend's wife works at the facility in my city and she helped me with paperwork/intake this morning. I went in at 10am and was talking to a therapist by 11am. Today was just very very good. My therapist seems to be well-versed with BPD behaviors and she understood everything I was saying and showed me a few simple ways to cope with anxiety when it starts to take over. There have been other factors over the last 5 years that really fed into my anxiety and I just want to be healthy again. We talked about all aspects of my life and will continue to see her for as long as we both feel I need it. I also made an appt. with my general practitioner and will look into getting on some meds that will also help with the anxiety. With that being said, this will be my last post on this board. It is time to move forward with my life and that means I no longer want hash out my xBPDgf's behavior, wonder when the next recycle may happen, or relive the past behaviors that caused me so many problems. I need to focus on myself now and work on making a better version of myself. I have neglected myself for far too long and I need to change. I've known this for a long time, I think it finally took hearing it from an objective 3rd party this morning. Thank you to everyone for your kind words and I wish you all peace and happiness.

[Sadly]

Well done and very good luck to you. Thing is, this isn't just a place for rehashing behaviours and bad luck stories. I have read some incredibly brave and positive things here which are helping me enormously. You sound positive and brave, it would be very helpful to hear how well you are doing, to let people know that not only is there a light at the end of the tunnel but we can emerge into it. However, I don't mean to be rude, the choice is yours and very very good luck for your future.  x

[zundertowz]

That is great news!  I can totally relate to ruminating about the ex and BPD and wanting to focus on yourself.  At a certain point we all have to move on and not be held hostage by our past... .good luck!