Hi Jaybird6664,
I'm sorry to hear that. It sounds like you have self-awareness or did some work in T ( therapy?)
We're not professionals and we can look at traits of the borderline personality type and we can protect ourselves our values against negative and hostile actions and behaviors directed at us. A simple way of describing boundaries is keeping the good stuff in and the bad stuff out.
Its funny whe you start dating a new person, they idealize and put you on a pedestal, overboard compliments and such really built me up in the first weeks of dating. Then I became the person to devalue, then the discard.
It's normal to idealize and mirror partners in the infatuation phase of a r/s and we can mistake the intensity of a pwBPD and idealization with emotional intimacy. It's a good idea to get to know someone and have boundaries, the push / pull behavior should set off alarm bells against our boundaries.
Setting Boundaries and Setting LimitsHow old is your child? Do you have a son or a daughter?
It's good to hear that you are working on your triggers and choosing to respond and not react, that way we can get off the emotional roller-coaster and detach.
You're checking your exes profiles on dating websites, have you put your own profile up on dating websites?