I was just wondering if anyone else is struggling with this sense of hyperawareness to dysfunction or those with perceived personality disorders/issues?
I remember that I was like this the last time it happened with the first pwBPD I ran into. It seems that it affected me for a long time afterward because I couldn't view the world in the same way. It took me a good... .7 or 8 months to feel myself again... .only to about 6 months later fall into the same trap all over again because my guard was back down.
It seems like these b****rds know exactly when I'm happy and in a good place and they attack, in all seriousness. I had just graduated college and I was content with the single life this May and here comes this last one to knock me off my happy horse.
I'm so tired of them stealing my sunshine and making me become closed off to people and the world, but my heart is in so much anguish when I find out that I've been tricked/left all over again that it makes it hard not to retreat to protect myself and try to heal.
But, it seems, it makes me hyperaware to the point that I have no tolerance for it... .until my guard goes back down after some time and I find myself with another pwBPD.