Have to break NC this week and feeling a range of emotions

[Beware of Junk Psychology...]

I have to see my exBPDgf (of 1.5 years) this week due to social engagements after just over 2 months of no contact. Sadly the last couple of days I've had an influx in the desire to be with her again even though I thought I was pushing past that. I know I shouldn't feel like that given her immaturity in how she treated me.

I have no idea what to expect from her or even how I might act. I want to know how she's doing since the break up but I also don't want to hear about her replacing me or seeing her flirt with other people.

[Corgicuddler95]

I have to see my exBPDgf (of 1.5 years) this week due to social engagements after just over 2 months of no contact. Sadly the last couple of days I've had an influx in the desire to be with her again even though I thought I was pushing past that. I know I shouldn't feel like that given her immaturity in how she treated me.

I have no idea what to expect from her or even how I might act. I want to know how she's doing since the break up but I also don't want to hear about her replacing me or seeing her flirt with other people.

[enlighten me]

These situations are difficult and I personally try to avoid them.

My only advice is either don't drink or go very slow with it. The last thing you want to do is either go into a rage at her or throw yourself at her like a needy mess. Alcohol will only impair your judgment. Try not to show she has an affect on you and act as neutral as possible. And try to enjoy the event as best you can.

[Corgicuddler95]

These situations are difficult and I personally try to avoid them.

My only advice is either don't drink or go very slow with it. The last thing you want to do is either go into a rage at her or throw yourself at her like a needy mess. Alcohol will only impair your judgment. Try not to show she has an affect on you and act as neutral as possible. And try to enjoy the event as best you can.

Sadly I have to drink to be able to socialise with lots of people right now. I'll get a friend to keep an eye on me though so I get the right balance.

Right now I want to be in some place were reconciliation is possible in the long term but need to focus on other people.