I definitely get it! I think I have this feeling of dread that some sort of terrible drama is going to erupt whenever I check my phone, go home, check facebook etc. So then it's unsettling for things to be so quiet. My evenings living with her were a nonstop barrage of trying to validate her dysregulated emotions, and now it's just me and the TV.
I think part of me is also expecting that she'll try to contact me more and beg me to take her back. Maybe even hoping for that, although I wouldn't take her back. It would be nice to know there was a real person under there who loves me and regrets losing me... .but I guess there wasn't.
What do you miss about the drama?
I can relate to your first paragraph... I just ate some dinner , kicked my feet up... Dead silence... No more random texts about "I saw so and so" talking about girls she perceived that were "in to me" ... Honestly I just miss "controlled drama" for example one day she stormed out of a social event , slammed the door... And sent me a text saying "you don't care about me blah blah" so I calmly step out try not to react but I don't know where she's gone... Try to call her but no answer... Keeps telling me I don't care... So I jog to where I think she is... Kind of intercept her in a sense... Then she's basically cursing me out in the street, cars flying by , someone stopped and asked are you okay? It was kind of exciting in a sense... I eventually diffuse it but that kind of controlled drama I didn't mind... Because it made it seem like she really cared about me
