Just stumbled onto the following and wish I’d have found it several years ago. It describes my experience, to a degree (codependency)... .
Link: Why are codependent confused after breaking upFor the codependents, what I see often is after a day, two, after a week, they start to yearn for that person they fell so deeply in love with... .There’s a "Part One" and "Part Three" that add little more. Part Two in particular focuses on BPD and Codependency. And if it's been posted previously, I apologize.
Finally free from my relationship and I’m moving ahead in life. There’s a lot of life out there and working on not letting ‘this stuff’ happen again.