It is hard to understand what his motivation is. I know it hurts. :'( We are right there with you.
Would it have been easier if he just said he didn't want you anymore? Probably not... .it would have been just as hard but at least he would have been honest.
I can not speak for his actions, but I can tell you my own experience... .
when my guy was "talking" to other girls, he always became very negative towards me and would lie. Mine never gave up looking for other girls. He was always keeping one on the hook.
I know you are thinking through a lot of this... .it is normal.
You need to start asking yourself, however, why you stuck with him? Why you put up with this behavior? Maybe you were unaware.
The way to get him off your mind is to simply keep working through it. Stay NC. Focus on yourself and only yourself. What are you doing to take care of yourself?
I kind of know how you are feeling though. I keep recollecting times where something was fishy, something didn't sit right. I didn't listen to my instinct. Why didn't I trust my instinct? Why did I let myself be fooled? Why did I put up with that kind of behavior? The answer is- something is broken within me- something that if I don't fix, it will repeat itself in future relationships.
Keep working through it!
Thank you! Yes. I must have something in me to work on. I just need to find it and figure it out. Maybe my T will help. I see her in few days. He made me feel special and the intimacy was incredible... .well in the beginning... .I guess I hoped that it would cycle back. Now I know that will never happen. I will continue to work on me. Each day is different. I want to say easier... .but you are familiar
