The end not sure what to expect...

[FigureIt]

So the letter my attorney wrote asking to take me off my and my uBPDbf house will arrive tomorrow. I told him Monday that I couldn't do this anymore and that he needs to find someone else I can't do it. I totally took the blame so it would just end and he begged we go to couples counseling, he's gonna quit drinking(but after the counsellors tell him). I kept telling him I'm far gone, this isn't the first time, I don't think I can let it all go, etc. He still wants to go to couple counseling. I just said okay and figure I'll say all the same stuff with the counsellors. Plus I've been sick for 10days (have pneumonia).

So the left will come tomorrow, his father has about a week left in hospice (Alzheimer's end). I just don't know what to expect.

[Turkish]

This i is a lot to deal with in addition to what should be your top.priority (self-care).

Are you going to go through couples' counseling even though you are done? Are you really done?

[FigureIt]

The counseling appointment is 12/21 and I will go and listen and also honestly express my feelings. I don't have that love and attraction to him anymore and I've tried to tell her m. He won't hear me. Maybe the 3rd party will be able to say it better. I said all the same stuff to him last night. I don't have anymore to give, I already gave too much. I'm guarded with you, I don't trust to tell you anything that won't be thrown back at me. I even said I'm hesitant that you took my D(10) to school while I've been sick cuz you may try to threaten me with that in some way. I was pretty blunt about some stuff cuz I don't want him to think it's easy.  Which him quitting drinking, changing his lifestyle of 20+ years etc is not in any way going to be easy and I don't want him to expect I'm there to do it. He has to do it!