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Lalasalad

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« on: December 18, 2015, 06:57:14 PM »

A poem to BPD mothers from their Children. I hope it helps someone in some way

I used to be your angel, I was your shining star, I knew it for you never let me very far.

I thought you loved me deeply, I thought I was your life,

I was the only one there for you when you went through so much strife

I watch the world be cruel to you,

I tried to hold your hand

My heart was always aching, I tried to be your man.

I wanted someone there for you; for until then I couldn't leave.

But the truth was with or without you I felt I couldn't breathe.

How could I be my own person when my thoughts were so shut down

I was trained to think like you, for free-thinkers surely drown.

I walked in the dark, I'd trip on a fuse

I created my own downfall, I was told to my bemuse

I just wanted to please you, to love and be loved, so i held you as you cried in a half hearted hug.

So now I'm alone and you speak ill of me. I hurt less now, because you leave me be.

No mother around, just broken memories, but now I know that it's typical of all BPD's.

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« Reply #1 on: December 18, 2015, 09:57:31 PM »

I can totally relate. Thank you.
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« Reply #2 on: December 19, 2015, 01:51:36 PM »

Hi Lalasalad,

Thanks for sharing this heartfelt poem with us. I can relate to many aspects of what you've written here.

I hope that in your solitude you will be able to be your own shining star. Just like you are shining a light for other children of BPD parents with this poem.

Be your own angel
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« Reply #3 on: December 19, 2015, 01:59:47 PM »

Thank you for sharing and expressing what many of us feel!

I relate greatly to the pain of simply wanting to be loved, yet offering myself for support and love, to not feel it returned.   
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« Reply #4 on: December 19, 2015, 04:06:22 PM »

I totally get this! Thanks for sharing it with us.   

It's all so painful, but I've found it has become easier to deal with now that I know about BPD. Once I realized I couldn't fix my mum, I was able to start fixing myself. 

I hope your future will be so much better than your past!

Chayka

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« Reply #5 on: December 19, 2015, 11:12:16 PM »

Hand on heat, Lalasalad. That moved me. Completely relatable

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