New member. I dated 2 opposite BPD women back to back. After a divorce. .

[jessedsickabouther]

My story could be a book. It's that long. I definitely want to tell it just so I can help at least one person.  I've been on here for over 2 years.  I think I have read every single post on undecided and leaving. 

I'm not in the mood to type it all tonight as I'm very tired and down from the last BPD break up . She is a waif. She was diagnosed.  And she told me about being BPD the first week.  Met her 1 week after I was charged with 6 misdemeanors from the prior ex BPD who was npd and psychotic and had my day in court. 3 of the misdemeanors were domestic violence assault. All 3 were dropped but it was a harrowing horrible time of my life

As I sit here tonight I can't believe what has happened with the new girl.  Very similar stories as many of you.  But my ex BPD never raged. Never hit me. Did so much for me and my kids and then one day... .boom.

If you ever wondered what they say to the new guy when they are cheating. ... well I was fortunate /unfortunate enough to find out because she downloaded her skype account to my kindle when we were dating and then a wwwk after the break up I found the chat log with the guy in my kindle by accident.  Even though she didn't use MY kindle the skype account duplicated her conversation.  Additionally  I CAUGHT her the same way when her ipad mimicked her iPhone.

I've been through it all. Beaten.  Lied to. Cheated on. By both.  Put my kids in the middle.  And these 2 women were COMPLETE opposites yet the one who was diagnosed professionally actually was the nice one. Until the end. She had DBT. In my opinion it doesnt help.

Anyway I'm more giving an outline of my story because I tend to run on. People here have saved my life.  I truly miss and loved my BPD ex. The last one. But I have held firm with no attempts to contact her since she didn't want to talk anymore one month ago tonight.  It's been hard.  I feel all of your pain.  I cry alot. But it's getting easier.

I'll share more later.  Maybe from the beginning.  I'm 45. Divorced with 4 kids . I'm losing faith in relationships in 2016. This online dating is just awful.

I have learned alot. I don't blame my ex . I hope that there is a pot of gold at the end of that rainbow.  It's been raining alot... .

M

[Anez]

Hang in there, M. You've been through a lot but just do good things for yourself - see a T, go out an exercise, be a great father to your kids, and keep grinding.

It will get better.

[JohnLove]

Hello jessedsickabouther, I am very interested in hearing about your story.