Why did I get so angry at my BPD ex?

[Before you can make things better, you have to stop making them worse...]

It's been over a year and I still think of my BPD ex. She cheated, lied and used me and yet I still feel bad for her. I broke up and lashed out through text as we could never have a sit down with closure and she would text her alternative reality for a time and then she would go silent. We both seemed to move on and I've dated others and went through a normal process of closure. I was also married for 18 years and my ex wife and get along for the most part, I have a great relationship with my kids, friends even other woman I've dated in he past. She ruins all her relationships son, daughter, ex husband, ex romantic partners, mother, father, sisters but she recycles some of them her mom after 4 years, her daughter and her son after abandoning him at 18 and then expecting him to compliant at 25. Anyway, I still care as she has blown up another romantic relationship and her friends keep me informed. I know I should just move on but I care.

[Brinn]

It's been over a year and I still think of my BPD ex. She cheated, lied and used me and yet I still feel bad for her. I broke up and lashed out through text as we could never have a sit down with closure and she would text her alternative reality for a time and then she would go silent. We both seemed to move on and I've dated others and went through a normal process of closure. I was also married for 18 years and my ex wife and get along for the most part, I have a great relationship with my kids, friends even other woman I've dated in he past. She ruins all her relationships son, daughter, ex husband, ex romantic partners, mother, father, sisters but she recycles some of them her mom after 4 years, her daughter and her son after abandoning him at 18 and then expecting him to compliant at 25. Anyway, I still care as she has blown up another romantic relationship and her friends keep me informed. I know I should just move on but I care.

[thefixermom]

Dynamite is very attractive for some reason. I imagine that some of her other exes are also struggling with residual attachment. It says a lot about you to have kept amicable relationships with your former spouse and others. Perhaps it's just the fact that the volatile BPD cannot be conquered and the desire to keep chasing is repeatedly triggered but is viewed as something other than what it is. I don't know.  There is definitely a sympathy aspect to the attraction, too... .an "if only they'd let me I could fix them and be happy ever after" syndrome

As for why did you get so angry?  Because you are normal.