Paranoid

[JerryRG]

Anyone else paranoid? After all the false allegations and pretend calls to police, stalking and her friends spying on me, whenever someone shows up that knows her or one of her past friends I get nervous and racing thoughts of how I'm being watched again. Crazy crazy, my ex knew where I was and who I was with way too much for random chance.

Oh well, when things are silent I fear, when we were together I feared, now I just wait for her to show up in my face. Part of the reason it's so difficult to let go? With BPDs it's never just "over"

[GreenEyedMonster]

My neighbors and my boss all have his physical description and some of them have a description of his car.  Does that count?

My ex talked about wanting to kill his other ex girlfriend.  He is afraid of being a criminal, so one can hope he isn't serious, but I'm not always so sure.

I'm confident that my friends and employers wouldn't take a word he said seriously.

[Michelle27]

I don't think it's paranoia.  My ex admitted to stalking me and has been spotted in the neighborhood when he had no other business months after we separated.  And I got word that the woman he had the year long affair with while with me has been feeding him information this past week by stalking my FB page (he deleted her from his the day he confessed to the affair, supposedly years after it ended and is now back in contact with her).  I think many of us got into (and stayed) in the situations we were in because we didn't listen to our guts.  We need to listen to our intuition more, not less.

[JerryRG]

While having an argument with my ex one night she stood in the kitchen and pointed her finger at me like she was holding a gun and slowly pulled the trigger, cold sober look in her eyes convinced me if she actually had a gun I would be dead. And yet I went back to her over and over again in total denial.