Hey RR4U
After reading all these posts. I sit here wondering why we all don't have more self value for ourselves. We all deserve to be treated with respect!
Indeed we do:) Valuing ourselves and to "know thyself" isn't always easy.
I asked myself over and over why does he have no much control over me and my happiness.
I liked this typo. It's nice because it looks like your subconscious is telling you he that doesn't have control over your happiness after all:) Definitely check out C.Stein's
recommendation because the understanding and acceptance can actually help a non to gain healthier control--there's a 2 minute video there you can start with:)
I hope you get some rest. When I found out more and opened myself to things close to "truth" that you speak of, I found that whether it's sad or cheerful can be up to us.