Update on my life since my BPD sister died

[ropend]

It's almost been a year since she died and though her action still sometimes annoy me I've managed to move on for the most part.

I still second guess the things I said and did with, for, and to my sister while she was alive but I almost always now see how those were frequently part of whatever scam of the week she was running.

I've started doing good things in my community in honor of my sister's memory and even met a nice girl who I've been able to help in ways my sister would never let me.

I'm still seeing a shrink and likely will for years but the sadness... .seems to be leaving me.

If I'm not around any more I want to thank you all for your support.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jdK1EIoZoAU

PS she loved Donnie Darko even more than I though I didn't know it till she was gone.

[Woolspinner2000]

Hi Ropend! 

Glad you stopped back to update us.   Sounds like you are working on your healing, and that is wonderful to hear!  Do you feel that your T has been helpful to you? I know that in my T sessions I keep learning, every time I go. There is so much to learn!

I'm sorry for the sadness you still feel due to your sister's passing. I think it is quite normal to second guess yourself. My dad passed away a year ago today, and I can see how you feel the need to second guess things that you said and did while she was alive. It happens, the 'what if' scenario. What if I hadn't said... .Or what if I had done... .I took a class titled Grief Share, and one of the weekly topics dealt with the 'what if' thoughts we have after someone we loved and cared for passes away. I've had so many of those thoughts myself. What if I had been able to get my dad moved to another hospital? What if we had known sooner? On it goes. What types of 'what ifs' are you possibly asking yourself that are causing you to second guess?

Please stay in touch! We are willing to listen and help you, a resource available for your support.

 
Wools

[HappyChappy]

I'm still seeing a shrink and likely will for years but the sadness... .seems to be leaving me.

Hey Ropend,

Lots of positive signs in your post, it’s great to see you’ve made great progress over the year. Keep trucking in the right direction.